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Raining!

2010-04-13T21:59:00.002+08:00

Aye Aye Mates!!!...
2nd day of so call H.Nitec got backfire
thanks to CMPB...
I have to go there & deffer
Luckily Isk was willing to give me a lift in his car to get to there fast...
So missing school during the 2nd day makes me feel bad...
hope the habit won't start again...
we then watch clash of the titans 3D with Yat Hammer...
then off to home...

right now just came back from work with drenched clothing...
halfway home it rained havily again...
thought of meeting apul...
but I decided to stay indoors as who knows it might rain again...

the problem now is that I dun have a timetable..
I don't know what time I supposed to start 2mrw...
I don't know the venue...
& I'll be damn....

til then gotta blast!

Just so cute!!!!

2010-04-13T03:05:00.003+08:00

SO CUTE SO BEAUTIFUL...

I WONDER WHEN WE WILL SEE EACH OTHER..

MAYBE THERE IS REASON WHY GOD MAKE ME TAKE PRIVATE O @ CORAL SEC...

ALL I HAVE TO DO IS JUST BE PATIENT...

THERE COULD BE A REASON WHY GOD WON'T LET US SEE EACH OTHER FACE TO FACE YET...

MAYBE ONE DAY...

WHO KNOWS THERE MIGHT BE GREATER THINGS TO COME WHEN WE FINALLY MEET...

BUT I WON'T BE EXPECTING TOO MUCH....

TIME TO LAY LOW...

TIL THEN ITS TIME TO ENJOY LIFE...

JUST TO BE HONEST I NEVER SEE ANYONE WHO IS CUTE, ADORABLE & SWEET AS HER...

TIL THEN SEE YA AROUND!!!!

THE RATED R ERA...

2010-03-29T23:59:00.002+08:00

YES HELLO MATES!!!!!!

I've been gone for awhile & yeah I'm back blogging like finally...
Life have been great this few months of 2010...
Met a new friend at work last month...
very funny , crazy & energetic person...
nice knowing ya btw...
I just can't believe Sue love Oi! music...
Been tag team champs with Khai lately....

Geng senario @ work all getting along well
here are the roster

Imran - Booker T
Zulkarnain - Undertaker
Aneep - The Rock
Ariffin - John Cena
Yat - Stone Cold
Firdaus - Jonathan Coachman
Azlin - Rey mysterio
Din - Batista
Baskhin - Funaki

I really wanna spend time sk8boarding but then its really hard to find a free time
I'm getting worst each day...
I lost most of my tricks...
Been busy working hard...
Sue & Khai ( Work mates ) have a goal for this month to gain at least 800pounds sterling b4 school starts so I guess joining them is a good idea...
I really need at least that much cash to get myself a new pair of tyres for my bike...
& the rest for personal reasons...

but then I'm really hyped about this coming thurs..
as my baby 125z I gonna get a new look...
wooooohooooo...
need a make over for myself again...
pimples are back dammit...

school is gonna start again..
one more time I defferred for NS...
H.Nitec here I come...
still got alot more steps to enter poly...

no matter what never give up...
now living life of Rated R....
SEX , VIOLENCE & ALCOHOL!!!!!!!!

goodbye 2009 , hello 2010

2009-12-31T12:44:00.003+08:00

another year is coming to an end...
this year happens so fast...
I have accomplished what I dream of...
to achieve a 2B license & owning a 125z is like a dream come true..
not much to talk about anyways...
so see ya arnd...

My love.

2009-11-30T02:40:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum mates..
Just came back after 11hours of work...
Really tired working at long hour & yet I can still bother to blog..
this month I'm really bankrupt...
so I guess I have to work hard before the next pay...
can't wait for this thursday to spend time with my beautiful zara..
by looking at her makes me melt very deep inside...
but I have to patient & wait to meet her on thurs...
til then ...
I just keep working to burn time...

PS:ZARA I WILL KEEP LOVING YOU & CHERISH YOU =)

Life

2009-10-19T00:50:00.002+08:00

Aye2 & Assalamualaikum Lads...
Its been awhile..
& yes life has been doing great lately but tiring...
Dad gave me an option to drop $500 to him & he'll get me an RXZ...
anytime babey...
he'll pay for the machine price...
so I just drop $500 for my insurance..
hopefully I get my $500 next month..
& RoXy Zack will make her debut...
can't wait for that...

So I guess thats about it mates..

2 month more? hmm =(

2009-09-24T04:56:00.002+08:00

Wassup homies...
Its been both great & bad week...
My 1st love's debut will be held back most to most between 1 to 2 months..
Mom wants to pay it cash...
She doesn't want me to pay interest & to make my life easy..
so RoXy Zack will arrive abit later...
how sad...
to be honest I'm freaking impatient...
I wanna ride..
but then like Zuhair's no job better not have a bike....
no $500 better not have a bike..
You'll never know when the bike is gonna be sick or fall..
Petrol don't for that...
don't forget 2T oil...
RoXy Zack seriously needs it if not she'll jam herself & send me flying high..
Put all that aside I guess while waiting I'll just happily work & save up in case all that I mentioned earlier happens..
I'am mad at mom for simply promising to downpay & take out this week but at the same time happy as wants to make my life abit easy to pay straight up cash..
So for the mean time be patient & live my life normally.

I still got something else on my mind besides RoXy Zack...
I just really2 can't get rid of the feeling...
I really apologise...
I'm really addicted & feel that I wanna wait as long as I could..
I still haven't meet the ending point yet...
All I can do is just pray that one day we will united to fight all obstacles forever..
Well I guess this is like part of the Punk Rock life.
I'am really sorry...

This is for you!
Til then Assalamualaikum!

Syawal Morning.

2009-09-20T06:27:00.003+08:00

Ramadhan has finally coming to an end.
The holy month that was filled with greatness which is given by god.
Now Syawal has arrive & I still feel that I don't deserve to celebrate but then at the same time happy as I can spend time with great cousins.
Then again I'm not getting any younger.
so put aside all this money nonsense & lets feel the true meaning of Raya.

To all my mates I would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya maaf zahir batin if I had made any mistake that I realise or not.
Hope to be forgiven & lets start fresh...

Next week RoXy Zack babey!!!!!

Vroom Vroom Vroom Vroom

2009-09-01T14:42:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum lads!!

Its been awhile..
I have a great moments last week.

A great moment in life of course & a great experiece.
for 4 freaking years I watched my mates play with throttle.
Changing from a normal to racing footrest.
at last I can finally do all that.

but then when is step Dad gonna finish work early?
I'm waiting for him to have a free time to get myself a ride.
I hope its not next 2 weeks.
beacause this Thursday he's off to china..

Please Please Please!!
I need a bike as a transportation & to work!!!

To all my friends always SAY NO!

2009-08-24T16:30:00.003+08:00

My heart was pierced.
Deeper than I ever imagine.
He was a great mate.
We had fun together.
I use to remember 2 years ago every night we use to stare at books.
We called each other wishing all the best for each others papers.
Not to mention you taught me what's the meaning of fasting.
That is what kept me going to fast the month without missing it.
& this year I hope it would be 3 year in a row.
I was so happy that got into a school after being a dog for 2 years.
What makes me much more happy that your doing better than me.
You even enjoy school.
Somehow I don't know how things could happen like this.
But we are all humans.
No human in this world is flawless.
Humans makes mistakes.
The mates & I will be waiting for you.
We will be there when your back.
We are more than just a firm.
We're a family!!.
I just wish to see you for the last time before you go.
I'll just pray to Allah that you'll be fine.
Until then til we meet again.
Hearing what happen almost makes be wanna cry & dissapointed.
But I guess you deserve another chance & there's some consequences you need to handle.

TP is in 3 days.
I'm not doing so well at my revision just now.
May Allah bless me on that day.
I want to pass.
I believe in myself.
I will dedicate this pass for someone alright.

Until then Assalamualaikum! =)

Puasa Beb!

2009-08-22T02:15:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum, May peace be upon you all.
Just came back from a great outing after Terawih prayers.
Had fun eating at simpang bedok & off to an unscheduled place at kallang & expo.

Finally returned to Springfield Sec once again with my ex-classmate Dan.
We both got nothing to do so we go to check out NCC.
Went home after that & after magrib off to Terawih prayers.

Fasting will begin shortly in a few hours.
So I guess I'll be taking a short nap until sahur
& smoke a last stick of cigarette,do my subuh prayers & off to sleep.

To all the muslims , Happy Month of Ramadhan.

Subuh!

2009-08-18T05:47:00.000+08:00

You guys must be wondering why am I blogging at this hour.
Firstly I have to wake up early because I haven't do my Isyak prayers.
I did it right in the nick of time before subuh begins.
Anyways I finally slept early last night.
I slept at 10pm after many months of sleeping 3am - 5am everyday.
I hope my sleeping time would maintain this way.
I'm seriously freaking hungry.
But I'm lazy to cook.
Fasting month is coming this weekend.
Can't wait for the excitement.
TP is next Thursday,
for that I'm just speechless.
Wish me luck people.
whatever happens I will just do my best.
Gonna do my subuh prayer & smoke a ciggerette then off to bed again.
School starts at 1pm Yee haw!

husky!

2009-08-05T00:59:00.004+08:00

Aye mateys!!!
Just now chill with my classmates & some of their other friends til late night.
One of my friend just took out his first hand husqvarna 125 out from the shop.
Syafwan bring along his RX-K.
So ape lagi try2 ar.

school was like shit.
we have to do soldering again after a year of not doing.

Anyways I got nothing much to say today & I'm hungry.

So Assalamualaikum mates!!..

I wish I had alot of money to get this.=)

Ahmad on Syafwan's temporary bike(His dad's)

NAFA =(

2009-08-04T02:37:00.000+08:00

Nafa test was extremely tiring.
Went home have a quick bath,do my prayers & land straight away to bed.
Today I just don't why I have the urge to edit & post my blog.
School at 1pm tommorrow so no worries.
Last month an intersting incident really changes my life.
I would not say what it is but,
It opens up my heart.
I tell myself for that day on,
I will not hate anyone,
No matter how bad they treat me.
All I do need to do is pray for the best.
Started to be even more responsible for myself than ever before.
& most of all I feel really calm.
Life couldn't be any better.
Thank Allah for all that.

I just love everybody I know.
All I need to do is develop my character.
They way I speak & everything.

We are all human.
Everyone is equal.
Respect is what that is should be given equally amongst us.
To me Men should treat Women with respect.
Women are not slaves,toys or to give us pleasure.
They are Men's companion.
They are Men's Tag Team partner for life.
So a atleast Men should give them respect in return.

I miss my mates
Beel.Yat.Haikal.Burger.Zuhair.Apul.Lam.Mahdi.
We should gather one day maybe outings & have loads of fun.=)

PS:why am I saying all this???

-_-

2009-08-03T02:33:00.000+08:00

Many events happened when I'm gone.
Most of them were great.
Not to mention having a great friend who I rarely chill with went on to serve his nation.
Its finally August.
TP is around the corner.
20+ more day left.
could this month be my vroom2 month?
I've finally decided on what to get.
But for the first few month I won't own a bike.
But I'll still be on the road.
Tune in next time to find out.

Off to bed...
Nafa test later at 8am =)
Assalamualaikum!

WRESTLEMANIA!!!!

2009-07-19T15:13:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum everyone!!!

at last I finally nailed my forth prac 8.
so now I'm left is TP!!!!.
which will be end of next month,
so I have to be patient & take some circuit & road revision just to be safe.
I'can't believe it I made it this far.
Alhamdulilah I manage to pass thru all obstacles.
I hope I can pass my TP next month.
I have never pass my practical once.
I passed by taking at least twice =(.
but anyways all of that have passed.
now I'm left with just one obstacle.
It only seemed like yesterday when I passed my prac 1.
13 may the day of my enrolment.
now I'm at the final stage.
so Insyallah by mid of fasting month I will be on the road.
Hari Raya ape lagi VROOOM..VROOOOM!!!!!

til then Assalamualaikum! =)

PS:Never give up or take things halfway!

Road to my Wrestlemania.

2009-07-10T01:09:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum Dudes & ????? girls?

Life in school have been very boring as usual.
1st week of school is oming to an end.
Really find it to understand about micro controller subject.
Alahamdulilah I nailed my 7th date last Wednesday even though halfway through the 2nd
round of the route it rain heavily.
Tommorrow would be my last & final 8th date.
I never nailed once for my date before since my 1st date.
who knows tommorrow might be it??
I'm trying my best to hit 20th Aug's TP.
Anything thats happens tommorrow I must do my very best no matter what.
Ride like I never before,
Its seems like I'm climbing a mountain & I just need one more obstacle to reach to the top & then after that I can finally go down.
Or maybe I put myself as a WWE wrestler,
roght now I have to win the no.1 contenders match to move on to main event Wrestlemania for the world heavyweight title.
the theory is like this:

*no.1 contender match = advancing to the 8th date.
*being no.1 contender & head on to the main event = passing the 8th date.
*winning the world championship = is when I passed my TP.

hopefully Insyallah I can make it for 20 Aug.
& hopefully I nailed my 8th date once!.

so I guess thats about it
wish me luck for tommorrow =)

PS: Do my best!

U turn!

2009-07-02T13:41:00.002+08:00

Yes ar finally I progress to my 7th date.
It will be on Saturday.
2 more to go & I'm done.
woohoo...
ride like the wind.
btw Transformer Revenge of The Fallen is fucking awesome!!!!!!!!

PS: I wanna to find my very own Mikaela Banes

I'm no longer an only child! =)

2009-06-30T16:59:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum mates!

I took me almost a week to finally accept my new sibling
as I was frustrated that it was in mommy's tummy for 2 months & then she told me.
but anyways I made a deal with my step dad that after I passed my license I would ask him to pay full cash for my bike first including my insurance & I will pay him back $100 bucks per month =),how smart am I..hehehe
But all that have to wait ,I'm still stuck at my 6th date.
I'm chasing after the early Aug TP.
btw last week Michael or maybe Mikaeel jackson passed away.
At least I'm happy he passed away as one of us Muslims.
May Allah(there is no god except him) give him a spot in heaven.

So my top 5 bikes that I was thinking to get:

1.Yamaha X1
2.Yamaha 125Z
3.Yamaha WR200
4.KTM 200
5.or perhaps no choice,Honda Wave hehe

lets not think of all this still got long way to go.
so thats all ppl.

PS:I miss talking to someone

lets hit the road

2009-06-19T23:43:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum, may peace be upon those who arrive at my blog.
alhamdulilah I nailed my 5th date for the 2nd time earlier this morning.
monday will be my 6th date that will only be at night.
luckily I have already passed my RTT & might as well go apply my PDL right after I passed.

Life have been so tired lately.
6 days straight I wnet to cdc for rev & prac.
I'm taking a break for now.

so I guess thats about it! =)

PS:Tag that labels on training

I had a dream

2009-06-17T15:24:00.002+08:00

Firstly assalamualaikum mates!!
I swear I'm not lying.
after having circuit revision in the morning,
went home quickly to have a great nap.
so that is when I had a wonderful & comedic dream.
Something that I wanted to dream for a long time & I would pray to Allah that it can come true & turn to reality.
Its has a great ending as this song suddenly appear

what a dream & I'm serious I'm not lying I swear.
Its up to you to believe it or not

hmmm...

2009-06-11T00:30:00.002+08:00

I got a great week alright for now,
passed my 3rd date last monday,
also passed my RTT last tuesday alhamdulilah.
tommorrow would be my forth date.
hope to nail it once.
at least I'm not in a rush as I passed my RTT.
got nothing else to say.
do believe in karma.
never give up & do your at everything.
If you failed at least you know you did the best.

so I guess thats about it.
& Assalamualaikum =)

Blast!

2009-06-08T00:17:00.003+08:00

Yea we spent the whole day finding blast!

Haiya Tuesday is my RTT & I need a miracle to pass it.
I only scored 80+% for most of my e trial papers.
I must not fail,
If not I have to wait until July to take again.

anyways as I was browsing youtube I checked out this few great shows & sitcoms when I was younger.
Here check them out:

I think you guys should remember this great comedy sitcom

a short skit of it.

Aksi mat yo yo is also something I would never miss as a kid,
Khairudin Samsudin during his early teenage years.

Loved this show ever since I was 6.

thanks to this I keep myself updated on the series til now.

this show is what makes me & my 90's mates get caught up in modifying our mountain bike & some haro bike, to pretend that we are riding a bike & race anywhere we want 3 years ago..kayuh laju2 tapi buat muke perah.

grew up watching this crap haha its always fun

never will I get bored watching this over & over again

my childhood show

this one too

I can watch it all over again

my favourite local comedy movie

for now my top list of favourite movie would be this one.

so I guess thats about it.
& there too many too mention so until next time lads cheers!

writing rubbish

2009-06-07T01:58:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum mateys!!!

for once I like to 100% honest about stuff.
I keep hiding but still only Allah knows how I feel.
First of all I got to know your friends & siblings by accident.
I got no intention to get you by using them honestly.
& I can't stop being friends with them because they are really good people.
I can be friends with anyone no matter how old & who they are.

I just don't know why I still have a crush on you.
I have a crush on you ever since I was in sec 2.
until now I don't why I still have that same crush for many years.
To you, you feel that I'm just a pest bugging your life.
You keep having a thought that when will this boy get a life & when will he give up.
even when you said my chances of getting you is zero to telor.
but then I also reliase since the day I first contacted you,
the reception between us is very very very bad.
I bet among everyone you know I'm the most black listed & wants to avoid at all cause.
I just don't know what else can stop me.
I kept telling myself that there are many fish in the pond.
but then I still wanna be with you.
About that getting a life,
yes I do contact some other & etc(you guys know the drill after that)
but then why must I still wait for you.
I do go fishing at Tagged but the question is ,
why do I still want you & to know that I can't even get you even if I wait for eternity.

Yes I do did alot of childish & horrible things to you in the past.
but then recent events changed me.
Yes I realise all of it is my fault.
By now I say maybe you might be with someone else.
but insyallah I wish to have a chance to prove to you.
I never had a chance to prove to you what I'am truely.
I realise that I'm younger than you.
I know that I might not be good looking & the way I'm dress is not your kind of taste,but then I'm just being myself.
I never like to be mainstream or wear what majority is wearing.
not exactly all lar.
but no one is perfect.
I wanna say your name but its so so so so confidential,

I would like to say this,

I still have a crush on you for 4 years,
I would like to apologise to you for all my wrong doings in the past.
& also apologise for bugging your life.
I just hope that you give me an oppurtunity one day for me to prove myself.
If no oppurtunity its okay,I'm not expecting it.
please don't look at me the same way like you did in the past.
so thats all I have to say to you.
I hope we could still stay as friends.

wtf???I suddenly feel useless typing all this shit.
as if you gonna read it or something.
I bet you don't even care about what I wrote.

Arghh!!..ape nk jadi,jadi lar.
tetap gua pang rok!

PS: I'm just wasting my time writing this hahahahaha =)

I'm back

2009-06-06T03:17:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum lads!.

finally got the urge to blog suddenly.
for now my brain has turn its swtich to holiday mode.
that means i'm gonna be lazy this whole month.
jobless & wasting my mom's cash.

recenty people come up to me & say why am I not serious in doing things?
the answer is simple.
I will forever be Pang Rok til the day I die.
I will never be 100% serious at everything I do.
Its just that I like to add smooches of FUN to all the things I do.
why must you be intense & so focus on things.
I will only be 100% serious at my role as muslim thats all.
for now I really plan to be lazy by lying on my sofa in front of th TV & enjoy my holiday.
For now I feel that I wanna take a break from my bike practical.
whats the rush I will eventually complete everything one day.

Btw
Note to all guys,
never befriended,date,engaged & married to a girl that:
*has B.O.!!
*armpit hairs
*hairy hands or legs
*who is not well dressed
*a slut
*wears thick make up
*messy hair
*bad breath
*funny teeth
*not educated
*has mustache
*tom boy

I dunno why I wrote that but I know I never wanna be with someone like that

PS:seriouness sucks,fun rucks!

hot hot hot

2009-05-26T00:44:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum lads!

well I can say today is a very hot weather.
I have to use the air condition when I'm in my room.
the fan doesn't seem to get the job done.

last friday I passed my 2nd prac 1 alhamdulilah.
ape mau pakai motor tkde cermin lagi haha
chey baru prac 2 mcm dah TP je.

anyways next weeks are my exams & I have yet to prepare for it.
at least no more lifeskill projects for now.
its all done.
wednesday will my prac 2 & thursday is my R3 & R4 theory.
after that I can book my RTT yee haw!!

this week is the last week of school.
then the holidays have finally come again.
that doesn't mean i'm gonna be free aite.
because I'm gonna concerntrate my O levels & bike practical.
so low chance of me going skateboarding & jamming.
not to mention meeting my mates.

so I guess thats about it my friends & take care!

PS:ustazah mcm ade janji je pakai samer2 merah last sunday! =)

18 & life!!

2009-05-17T03:11:00.009+08:00

Assalamualaikum mates!

Not been updated lately because step dad spoil my laptop's LCD screen.
Things are great lately.
I most enjoyed the Singapore X fighters just now.
Went there with my fellow mates.
After that watch some great football & MAN UTD are the fucking champs again.
Fucking YES!.
I simply love extreme sports for a long time & thats how I got into skateoarding.
seriously one day I wanna try dirt biking.
seeing X fighters really makes me wanna own a husqvarna 125,yamaha WR,Honda XR or KTM 125 after I passed my 2B license.
But then like people say ''tkde duit jgn nk bergaye''.haha.

Hell of ride!!!!!

Glory Glory Red Devils!!

Champions again!

13 may was fucking great.
I'm finally 18.
went to enroll for my 2B that day itself after school.
my 1st practical will be on Monday.
but my theory will be next months shit!
later that night went to simpang bedok with my ex secondary schoolmates.
after that we went to play left 4 dead & cs at crossfire woohoo.
so I guess thats about it & let all the pictures do the talking.

Me & Shahfiq celebrating together since he's 2 days older than me.

waiting for the clock to hit 12 midnight.

Finally legal to hold & to smoke a ciggarette

stomach full

the ex spf mates

No more underage smoking.

a so call dream come true & the time has come.

Here below is just an old pic of my long time mate Farhan's wedding on the 2nd May.

Selamat pengantin baru Farhan & Fiza

so off to sleep now got madrasah later.
PS: next month will be car license.GLORY2 MAN UTD!!!!

24 hours =(

2009-05-12T00:25:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum,peace be upon you.

Lets say its a sad day because I'm left with 24 hours before being legalised.
I'm gotta becareful of what I do & think twice.
there is no more juvenile cases for me anymore.
last saturday & sunday was my last weekend of being underage.
weekends are the days that I can really have fun
& now my teenage years are coming to an end.
Now its time for me to face semi adulthood.
Today(as in monday) was an old secondary school friend's Shahfiq Nordin a.k.a crouch's 18th birthday.
he's older than me by 2 years,
we're gonna celebrate together this wednesday with some old friends.
I hope to have a great time having dinner at simpang bedok.
I wish things like this could never end.
But we have no choice everyone has to go through this stage.
that doesn't mean it can stop me from doing fun things like,
having fun,running here & there,shouting all day long,irritate people,buy toys,watch cartoons & most of all being Pang ROK!!!!.
Being PANG ROK! is something that flow in my blood forever.
because even if I have my own family,
I will always definate have alot of fun & also have fun on stage & doing the the called music!
so thats all I have to say about it so adios amigos!

one more week!

2009-05-06T01:34:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum,Peace upon everyone!

I'm left with exactly a week before I'll be legalised!
but then I'm gonna miss being underaged.
for many years I find kinda adventurous where you have to find shop that think you look old enough or that sell ciggarettes freely without asking for your IC.
when I was in sec 1 and 2 I would go up the stairs to smoke with my friends,
afraid that someone who saw might call the cops.
Even after I finally dared to smoke in public I still look out for cops in case they wanna screen or patrolling.
Even though the fine was only $30,
but still its a waste of money & you have to go to outram to pay the fine.
I've been caught once when I was 15.
& its quite tiring to travel to outram.
Pretty soon all that is over in 7 days.
Time really travel fast.
I started counting down to 18 for 10 months & now the time is approaching.
At least it saves me the burden to find shops to buy ciggarettes.
Next week I can finally go to any shop to buy them.
Don't forget that I'm gonna enrol for my 2B license.
thought of taking car at the same time,
but then maybe after I complete my bike.
also I have to study for my O levels & Nitec final exam.
still have not started on my O's.
haven't got the time yet so maybe perhaps after my mid Nitec exam & its the holidays,
I have plenty of time.
So I guess thats about it,
need to take a shower & have something to eat,
then later its time to watch football so adios!

No more stairs!

2009-05-01T02:56:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum,Peace be upon all you readers,
Finally the lift at my block is finally done & can be use after 5 years staying here & using the stairs.
Pretty much did the usual stuff this week after school went home straight to sleep or hang out for a while.
its finally may & 13 more days I'm finally legal(time lambat kepe).
I'm still thinking whether I wanna enrol for car license at the same time along with bike or not.
or maybe should I wait until I passed my bike.
Step dad says he's buying me a MP4 & mom wants to buy me a billabong wallet.
But then I don't mind about presents & wishes.
I just wanna thank Allah that he let me live this long & I pray that insyallah he can let me live until I can see my grand children.
I'm left with 13 days of being underage so I gotta have fun while it last.
to me being 18 is no big deal in life because I don't drink & club.
the only thing easy is for me to buy ciggarettes.
can't wait to enrol for bike & start my practical.
I hope to pass my bike license before Hari Raya insyallah.
anyways I gotta not think about all this because I'm being typical.
So I guess thats about it,
& yes my nephew Muhd Amsyar Hakeem 1st b'day is in 7 days & I have to get him an Adidas shoe.

PS:May is my month!& 2009 is my year!

Makan Makan Makan!!!!

2009-04-26T00:56:00.002+08:00

Lets start off with yesterday as in friday,
its so called the makan day.
I continously ate the whole day.
I was chilling with Lam & Nabeel at kmpng,
I bought a meggi goreng & finish and still hungry.
then nabeel can't finish his briyani rice & fries,
so ape lagi bedal lar.
went home for a while to have a bath & took my deck.
at about 6.30pm went to Illia's place to borrow books for my O levels.
She then asked me to lepak for a while, we chit chat & her mom cooked roti bakar which was so powderful.
went off at about 8 plus then off to 3G to sk8.
after ape lagi balek tido lar.

yes went to gig at parklane earlier as in saturday.
It was awesome.
I had fun thanks to band like One eighty,shine & many more but too bad misissued did not play.
thanks naz from One eighty dedicating a song to me,All tied up.
but amcm namer aku leh salah ahaha.
anyways thats all for now .
peace upon everyone assalamualaikum!

Its finally done!

2009-04-23T02:06:00.002+08:00

Yeeee Haaawwww!!!!!!
I'm finally done with my lifeskill design project's report.
It took me a week to finish.
But I do laze off alotof times.
I've been trying to finish up the report since 7pm & now its 2.15am.
I guess I'm gonna finally have dinner.
then take a shower,do my Isyak prayers & then off to bed.
in the middle of doing my project I went out to visit my mates at about 9pm & then went home at about 11pm.
So I guess that's for today.

PS:Still counting!

Leceh ar ni Burnt tukar2 link

2009-04-21T00:14:00.005+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!!!!!!!

Just came back from accompanying Rosdi to CDC.
He had his Circuit revision & since I'm bored & tired form doing the stupid lifeskill project & also don't forget school!.
I took the time off to follow him.
Bumped into Ruzaini there,he's also having circuit revision.
Alhamdulilah Ruzaini's GF was there so at least I'm not bored & got someone to talk to & comment or laugh at the instructor while waiting them to finish.
Tommorrow if I'm free I guess I'll be seeing my mates.
Right now I'm revising the steps for my Practical phrase test for tommorrow.
Feel really sleepy seriously because I'm taking medicine.
I guess I'm going to have a good sleep right after my Isyak prayer so I guess that wraps it up.
Btw internet is finally smooth again.

PS:still counting haha! I'm just enthusiastic.

2 day in a week?

2009-04-18T02:29:00.002+08:00

I can't believe it happens 2 days in a week.
could this be a sign from Allah?
everything that happens is for a reason.
but then I can't jump into conclusion.
my lappy is been moody lately.
it effing lags when I played left4dead.
no time to really browse the internet lately.
the only thing I did was go to youtube,wwe.com & facebook the whole week.
internet is also lagging I don't know whether its the modem or something else.
anyways its a good thing though.
I at least got no distraction from my studies.
I can study for my phrase test next wk & also finish uo the stupid lifeskill design project.
got to start studying for O lvls next week after I get my books.
at least not spending alot of time on the internet means I'm not spending time at home or I end up sleeping all day.
It can sometimes takes more than 5 mins to load a page.
thats why I don't bother blogging or checking out other webs except my email & facebook.
its kind of strange that my messenger has no problems?
aanyways Ihave nothing more to say so goodnight or is it good morning? to all the cute girls & gayish guys!

It came back.

2009-04-16T10:47:00.002+08:00

Yes only Allah knows how I feel right.
I shouldn't have accompanied Rosdi yesterday so that this feeling wouldn't come back again.
I've been avoiding things like this to happen.
I'm aways afraid to see you're beautiful face in front of my eyes.
Now the feeling is back.
But luckily its stays for awhile.
before it goes away its very distracting.
I actually gone over this thing a long time ago but when I see your face its reminds me of how I use to feel about you.
I still keep in mind that the probability of me getting you is ZERO to TELOR!
but I just wanna be normal old High school friends.
& I don't want you to look at me the same way like last time.
I've change for the better & if you want me to prove it,then it shouldn't be a problem.
I just wanna say I miss you & I love you!.
don't worry this feeling will go away soon.

PS: you never lost you're cute smile.

Can't wait for it!

2009-04-16T10:01:00.002+08:00

Hey asshooles & shitheads!!!!.
Yesterday was great did some fun with meeting & chilling with my ex-secondary schoolmates.
before that I accompanied Rosdi to CDC to take his prac 4.
I saw mny ex-spf students there like Hazwan NPCC,Acap kambing & some other friends of mine.
I even saw an old friend of mine taking her 1st I think car practical.
seriously she shows her stupid face when shes hlding the stering wheel.
no offence btw its kind of funny haha.
Seeing her taking car license & friends taking bike license makes me more impatient & I can't wait for next 3weeks.
Its been 2 weeks since I visited my mates.
I guess its time to visit them again & who knows I could ride around their bike.

PS: 3 more weeks & counting!

Back to school

2009-04-14T01:43:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum beautiful ladies & handsome guys.
school have started again& it sucks!.
luckily I'm finishing this December.
Have a good nap from 5pm to 1am.
now I wanna have a good dinner & then do my assignments.

Last Saturday was a blast.
But i was dissapointed because its called a Punk Rock show.
& only 40% of the bands there know the meaning of punk rock.
therefore why waste time calling yourself a punk rocker if you guys kept thinking of fame,perfection & fashion?
All my mates like Yat,Lam,Wani,Mahdi,Pul,Beel,Kal,Sharul Sk8,cousin burger(b'dae boy),Kasmadi,Dale(amin's buddy),Nerd,Dinno,Zuzuhair & who ever I forget I'm very the sorry =).
I was having great day alright.
went to Arab st's FAD studio later to wait for Straight Forward's gig.
the moment I reached there I saw Naz bassist of One Eighty.
I befriended him & its an honour to get to know him.
He's friendly & very humble seriously.
Yea we talked about fat mike,basses & the happenings of Lion City Punk Rock.
about the kids terrorizng the true punk rock scene.
after he had a move off & I thanked him for giving me the support to keep Punk rock alive.
Til we meet again Naz.
Also that day after few years someone almost made my wire snap.
& I was about to have my Wrestlemania.
but I guess god forbits it from happening maybe next time.

So I guess thats about time to do my assignments.
We all must unite.
Its not they have your back but you have their back.

Wrong Direction

2009-03-31T03:01:00.002+08:00

Lets start of with yesterday as in last Sunday.
I went to sentosa with my fellow mates.
From morning until sunset we enjoyed as much as possible there.
swim, suntanned & football on the beach.
Head & went home by car.
this would went down as highlight of my 2009 life.
all of us went home even darker except for nabeel.
after that when I reached home ,I had a good 17 hours of sleep seriously.

Well today I went to meet my future brother in law(mcm paham) Mr Farhan kambing.
went to tampines mall to find his pants.
then chilled at kampong with Zuhair & Tahir until 2am.

I just can't believe that I'm turning to someone that people hate.
I wanted to prove that I'm the new Fehrin as in a more mature,good attitude & more responsible.
but then I turned to someone worst.
like just now I realise that my close cousin Fairuz took away my everlast watch without my permission & took it home without my permission.
yes its partially his fault.
but then it doesn't give me the right to fuck him upside down.
Out of frustration I did fuck him upside down after I realise that its gone & I told him to send it back today .
& he did right after he came back from work which is 12 midnight.
I felt wrong doing all those stuff.
Its just a watch & I'm not burrying it along to my grave one day.
I can feelthe frustration in him the way he packed the watch in the DHL packet which is 7 layers & put it outside my house.
Really I felt crying after cooling down & he's like my own sibling.
myself & other cousins including Fairuz grew up together so close & I bet he is dissapointed in me.
He have to work until midnight & he sent the watch.
''if I were in his shoes yes I feel frustrated & you're my cousin how could you my cousin after what we been through do this to me,you could tell me nicely at least.''
Right now I really don't know how to come face to face with him & apologise.
Even Mom told me to talk to him nicely & collect it on sunday because he's always busy working.
but no I didn't listen.
Mom obviously thinks that she raised a stingy devil.
I bet she is dissapointed too.
seriously I feel like there is a cold lump in my heart.

Not only this incident,
the ones with my mates & especially Elmizam.
I got frustrated for little things.
& I said things that I have no right to.
why why why!!!!
I want to change to someone good not a devil wearing a human mask.
Allah please bring me to the correct path.
I seek for your forgiveness for my sins.
Friends,family & everyone I seek for your forgiveness too.
I was maybe thinking of going after someone again for the last time & prove to her I'm the new & improve me.
but then with my kind of attitude I don't deserve friends,family,someone special & even parents.

I think I'll be better left alone.
I deserve it.
PS: I sincerely apologise to everyone.

may 16

2009-03-27T19:08:00.002+08:00

still can't play may 16 by lagwagon
I'm just fucked up by alot of stuff.
But thank god that I have my mates that always puts a laugh on my face.
I guess when school reopens I have to start studying for alot of things.
especially my nitec & o lvls.
sometimes in life i wish I had all these;

I wish:
*I was good looking
*I had fair skin
*I was born in a rich family
*that my Mom & dad didn't divorce
*I had studied hard for PSLE & landed in the express stream
*I had make the decision to go Sec 5 rather than ITE.
*to find the girl of my dreams(fair skin,polite,beautiful,non-smoker/non-drinker, that understands me,religious,who doesn't like to wear sleeveless, not too skinny,my height,pink lips,don't get jealous,doesn't care about my life,not so chatty,sporty,polytechnic or university student,not irritating,doesn't really need my attention most of the time,must be at least my age),if i do found someone like that I swear I'll stay with her forever.
*I had siblings
*that I don't need to go for NS.
*that I'm in Polytechnic or H.nitec.

but somehow I don't need all this.
I'm just happy with what Allah have given me.
& I thank Allah alot.
I least I have a great average life.
I have great mates to keep me company.
great Mom & Cousins.

PS: I don't know why I'm writing all this.

Could this be the end.

2009-03-26T17:59:00.002+08:00

I hope so.
I'm pretty frustrated because of I thought someone is a reliable person.
Elmmy my patience has limits.
Since last Sunday you've paitao-ing the session & it turns out like this?
& today you're free & you give silly excuses that you can't go out.
or maybe you're just plain lazy.
Is it hard to just session one simple new song?
where is the unity?
I can't believe it.
I always thought from day one that we both are the only one that can survive in this band.
maybe perhaps in 5 years only two of us remains in the line up.
while others has come & gone.
Another reason I hate my own band because I have a mainstream mug in it.
Why must you people want to be famous?
why must you turn music into something that call fame?
don't you know the meaning of punk rock?
why must flaw & perfection bother you?
Don't you get what fat mike said??
''If you did mistakes that means you're punk rock,if you're trying to be perfect it means you're good charlotte.''
You wanna be mainstream so where ever you go people know you?
for fame,glory & cash?
luxury?
you wanna get chics like the backstreet boys?
ouh fuck off!!!.
Another phrase by fat mike ''music(is written)from devotion,not for fame or ambition''.
you dare to call yourself a punk rocker.
how humiliating.
Tomorrow jamming right?
We'll see if I turn up or not.
you guys torn my heart.
I'm seeking for revenge.
I want you guys to feel more worst than me.
You better pray that I won't gone missing on the 11th april.

PS: To me its unfair that why I want revenge.Its all you guys fault.

I wanna do this shit again

2009-03-24T21:13:00.002+08:00

YOU MUST TRY THIS.

1. Put iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
ACAB - Skinhead 4 life(huh??)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
h2o - Go(???)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Backstreet Boys - Quit playing games with my heart.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Zebrahead - Legs like that.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Mega - Bayangan Gurauan.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Blink 182 - Stay together for the kids.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Scorpions - Rock You like a hurricane(yes Mom do rock me)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Michael Jackson - Beat it.

WHAT IS 2+2?
Alter Bridge - Metalingus.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Bad Religion - Infected.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Click five - Catch your wave

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
h2o - My curse

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Blink 182 - Voyeur.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Mario - Let me love you(maybe?)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Strung out - Letter Home.

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Blitz - Warriors

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Strung out - unkoil

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Rusty Blade - Ikrar Perwira

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Blink 182 - Rockshow

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Slick Shoes - What happens next(I guess)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Lagwagon - Errands(maybe too much)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Blink 182 - Another girl another planet

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Craigs brother - Set Free

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Blink 182 - Wendy Clear

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Lagwagon - Stokin the neighbours

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
The Vandals - Long Haired lover.

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Mariah Carey - We belong together

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
+44 - No it isn't

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Unwritten law - seeing red

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Blink 182 - 21 days

Suicide Pact!

2009-03-21T18:21:00.002+08:00

First of all let me start on today is last day to register for Private GCE 'o' levels.
I thought of taking English & Maths so at least I have an advance to advance to Poly from Nitec.
Since English & Maths repesents 2 credits & my Nitec Cert Represents 3 credits,It should be enough.
But I have yet to register.
If I were to register than Mom wouldn't let me take my bike license until after I'm done with my 'O's.
So I'm still pending my decision.
I got until midnight to think.

this I had a great alright.
last Tuesday I 've reunited with Zulazfar 2 weeks in a row.
but I still miss Hafiz not being around ,I bet Zul misses him too.

Last thursday I went out with my best sis Illia Sulastri.
Dah lamer tk nmpak haiya kelihatan semakin tua..haha.
Illia DAH TUA!!!!HAHAHA.
unlike me I'm still a kid.
Yeah we chilled at McCafe for a few hours.
she brought along her friend.
I couldn't believe when Illia told me that her thought I'm 20+?.
wtf???!!??? haha unbelivable.
I hope somebody thought 14.
that will be awesome.

Yesterday me & Osman went to punk fest.
but the line up are all punk rock band???..
I guess they forgot to put the rock in the back of punk.
All the bands there were great.
Misissued,shoe size nine,rubix,snixtyx,inked out & of course One eighty.
Lion City Punk Rock will live forever!!!.
I can fell that with bands like this,it can never die.
Like fat mike says - ''Music(is written for)devotion,not for fame or not for ambition''.
but too bad Amin was busy with working at mosaic & can't make it.
so Bud from misissued sessions for him.
overall the gig was fantastic.
after the gig went to al ameen to eat & then went straight home.

PS:So tell me now? Where do I stand

1st gig!!!

2009-03-16T03:27:00.003+08:00

yes yes yes its my 1st time performing.
to be honest I did alot of mistakes but then kate PUNK ROCK pe..
hahahaa.
thanks for those who were there especially Faris jebat,Haikal,burger,Sharul,Zully & those who we don't know.
but questions still floating in my mind,what happened to the punk rock kids???
up next is Punk rock show 11th april at club 6.
hope one eighty will respond back to Jebat.
really be an honour to share the stage with them.
after the gig,
most gone to separate ways.
myself,elmizam,jebat & khairani went to suntec.
we meet up with Jebat's friend.
chilled at ass planet & listen to some good jazz performers playing.
jebat & I managed to approach one eighty's drummer amin who was working as a crew at ass planet.
I was seriously speechless.
It was an honour shaking amin's hand seriously.
he is like my influence.
so enough of last saturday.

earlier as in sunday,
I spent the day with my new best friend Nashrun aka Dol.
lepak with no cash in hand.
he accompanied me collect my lappy baby from the doctor.
after that around magrib went my cuz crib to get a new haircut.

so thats all people,
I would to thank those who supported the band.
thanks Lammy Boy for giving me the confidence mate.
thanks to all especially two7seven hooligans & my other mates.
tc & selamat tido!!!!!!

1st gig!!!

2009-03-16T03:27:00.000+08:00

Forever blowing bubbles

2009-03-08T15:45:00.003+08:00

Fucking Yes!!!!!!!! Green Street Hooligans 2 was a fucking blast!!!!
Its about Dave a.k.a the subway station guy life in prison with his two other GSE lads.
I can't believe it even in prison theres football hooliganism.
they survived even though they're out numbered.

There is no more Ferr

2009-03-06T18:14:00.002+08:00

Just woke up earlier at about 4.30pm.
Didn't went to Friday Prayer because I overslept.
I went home from school at abput 10.30am.
& then went straight to bed,

Meeting my secondary school las later after magrib,
Alfi is now doing his prac 4 for 2B license.
I find unfair for those who get to born on early of the month.
I wish I was bprn January,
Fuck I'm still left 2 months fuck!!!!!.

Don't get me wrong.
I don't hate all of you but I hate most of you.
I'm Ok only with the tallest guy,white epiphone jogger,''black'' metal,hairyman who rides 125Z ,bald skinny policeman.
for the rest of the mate, I guest I will hate you guys even when I'm dead.
Like I said its not me but its them.
Now I fight my own fights.
I was born in this world alone & I will go in the grave alone.
Alone I stand & Alone I shout.
Alone I'm proud!!!

PS:So where do I stand now???

Alone I stand

2009-03-06T01:48:00.002+08:00

Just few simple words.
AS OF NOW I'M NO LONGER PART OF KAMPONG TWO7SEVEN HOOLIGANS!!!!!
You guys are just my mutual friends.

Its not me,Its them!!!!!!!!!!!!

On Hiatus For A while

2009-03-03T01:13:00.002+08:00

Hey guys sorry for not updating.
my three days stay in KL last week was fun.
I did alot of shopping.

Today as in monday.
My CA says theres no need to study.
Instead the whole class played CS on the lab's com.
haha.
haven't had did much CS fun in a long time.

so I guess thats about.
gig is in 2 weeks & I still have not learned 1 more songs.

Do come down & support.
for tix do contact me.
I will be selling them at $6.

ZZZzzZZzzzZZ....

2009-02-23T17:28:00.002+08:00

My lapbaby have been causing me a pain the ass all week.
I can't seemed to connect it the internet.
I tried troubleshooting it but it doesn't work.
I've used all my knowledge I learned in school yet it doesn't work.
so I guess its about time lapbaby visits the doctor.
now I have no choice but to use my old desktop.

Off to KL tomorrow...
be back on thursday.
away from school so,
hopefully by then my lapbaby will be back.

PS:shop until I drop.

Ice Ice Baby Ice!!

2009-02-18T23:45:00.005+08:00

firstly I'm tired from cleaning my Laptop.
I have to pluckout the keypads one by one.
It all started when I was curious of where are the ants coming from.
there were so many of them on my study desk.
after each time I killed a group of them,
another group came by.
so I did a little investigation & they were coming from my underneath my laptop keypads.
so I pluck one of them & it seems that they have been making shelter under there.
so might as well clean the whole laptop.
there were many dust & some food crums that perhaps was being collected over 2 & a half year even since I started using this laptop.

tommorrow my band stick-a-slap is gonna have jamming session again.
by end of this month we'll be making a recording.
1 or maybe 2 songs.
anything we'll be up loading it at myspace.com
so do check it out for our up coming shows,gigs & songs,
www.myspace.com/stickaslap

here's the flyer for our up coming gig,

do come down & have fun ,
for tickets docontact me,
I'll update on our timeslot.

check this out,

thanks to my itchy fingers.thats my bass's new look.

PS:I'm still pissed that at mosque someone still got the urge steal my adidas slipper that have been with me for a year plus!

Red Hot Moon

2009-02-18T02:07:00.000+08:00

YOU MUST TRY THIS.

1. Put iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Blink 182 -Down

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Michael Jackson - Beat It

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Drake Bell - I found a way

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Lagwagon - Alien

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
NOFX - Electricity

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
h2o - What happened?

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Motorhead - Trigger

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Loudness - Heavy Chains.

WHAT IS 2+2?
MXPX - Responsibility

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Blink 182 - What's My age again

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Libertines - Don't look back into the sun

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Power Ranger Wild Force Theme(I wish)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Pennywise - We'll never know(yup)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Backstreet Boys - Quit Playing Games With My Heart(haha)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
MXPX - My life story

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Cock Sparrer - Riot Squad

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Acab - We're coming back

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Eminem - Smoke Weed(hell no,I aint't a junkie)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Blink 182 - The Party Song(Yea they are aways fun)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Sugarcult - Saying Goodby(depends on who & what is the situations)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
lagwagon - Restrain

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Blink 182 - First Date

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Blink 182 - TV(depends on what show)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Joey Macintyre - Stay the same(yes it can nearly make me cry but its gonna take alot more than that)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Sum 41 - Heart Attack(hope not)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Lagwagon - Raise a family(somewhat yes)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Millencolin - Mr Clean(????)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
ACAB - Freedom & Justice

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Taufik Batisah - Teman Istimewa

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Rancid - Red Hot Moon

Lion City Punk Rock must still lives!!!

2009-02-17T00:21:00.005+08:00

aye2 mates..
didn't update thanks to some internet problems.

first of all lets start with 15th feb.
This date will forever be in my heart.
mainly its because of last year.
remeber this:

I bet you still do.
I really appreciate alot that you've appriciate everything I've done.
Not only for that & also other times.
Even though I kept saying that I've closed the book of me chasing you,
but then I sometimes have that feeling that I'm still in love with you.
I'm trying my best to let it go away but its slowly working.
But sometimes the feeling came back in a blink of an eye.
To be honest yes I do wanna be with you.
But I realise for 4 years the probabilty of me getting you is still zero to none!.
I can't force you to be with me.
But yet moving on helps me alot.
still what bothers me is that feeling I have for you came back unpredictablely.
I hope that you don't look at the same way at me like last time.
I've done alot of mistakes as in childish mistakes towards you.
Just so you know I've changed alot.
recent events have tought me to be a better person.
that event changed me alot & I'm not wasting my life anymore like I used to.
I now hold my own responsibility.
I not saying I'm just saying.
It will be a miracle if you would let me have a chance to prove,
but I don't expect things like that to happen,
I will still continue to move on & strive for my goals.
But tetap kite members Sec sch.
But if you have the time,
I please do call my cellphone.
I have shocking news to tell.
Its not about you or me.
Its about OUR friend.
Hope to keep it between you & me.

Okay stop all that crap..
Alright went to substation for a gig with Mr Osman.
We went there by his van.
He picked me up from home around 5pm.
Mostly were Ska,raggae,punk rock & hardcore.
but the main reason for me & osman to attend that gig is Lion City's Punk Rock band called ONE -EIGHTY.
We reached & then joined our mates Zuhair,Beel,Yat,Kal,Indra,Elmmy,Apul,Lam & some of the Yat's bootboys mates.

As a punk rocker myself I will definately selute to One-Eighty.
I respect them because they show the true meaning of punk rock.
They do it for what they love,the music.
not for fame,glory,perfection & being mainstream.
Osman is a friend of their drummer Amin.
To me Amin is an influence to me even though he is a drummer & I'am a bassist,is that doesn't mean your a skinhead you can't play punk rock.
Yes to be honest Oi music is part of my way of life same goes to punk rock music.
So doesn't mean I'm not a skinhead I can't play oi.
what dissapoint was the crowd.
what happened to the punk rock kids????
jumping here & there flying everywhere????
don't tell me punk rock is dying??
& Singa-Scene is taking over???
Fuck the media,fuck mainstream,fuck tendy kids...
no way hoozay...
my band & I will shout the name PUNK ROCK with PRIDE!!!.
Punk Rock will never die.
Hope to share the stage with one-eighty one day.
We will definately be honoured.

PS:Punk Rock Still Lives

Valentine's Day Sucks!!!!

2009-02-15T02:28:00.003+08:00

Lets start with Friday the 13th.
Did nothing much.
Lepak at orchard with my friends that night.
Step dad came back from Poland & get me these stuff from there.

chocolates from Poland

14th Feb,
V.day can kiss my brown ass.
Orang islam tk bole celebrate faham!!!!
dah mcm orang kafir tau!!!
what is so good about V.day???
Don't tell me v.day is the only day that can show true love to your partner.
There is always other days duh!.

I did nothing but stayed at home.
Nothing interesting to talk alright.
So I guess thats all .
Assalamualaikum!.

my customized bass

Let others know a little more about yourself

2009-02-15T01:47:00.002+08:00

***********FOOD-OLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice?
I don't eat salad.

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
Royal Plaza Hotel's Restaurant.

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
Chocolates

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
Spices,Cheese,Pepperoni,beef,pineapple.

What do you like to put on your toast?
chocolate butter,strawberry jam & sweet margarine.

**********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many television sets are in your house?
5.

What color of cell phone do you have?
black.

***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right handed.

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
my skin.

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
my laptop.

Have you been unconscious before?
yea,its fun.

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Duh!,so I could repent quickly.But no way hoozay its gonna happen.

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Otto Christopher Rocket.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
I'l give it a shot.

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
none.

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
late last year.

Last person you talked to?
my step dad.

Last person you hugged?
of all people that stupid idiot call haikal.

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
winter!

Holiday?
U.K. , Aussie, & Great Bearer Reef.

Day of the week?
Friday!

Month?
May.

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone?
Nope.

Mood?
Bored.

What are you listening to?
cock sparrer - where are they now.

Watching?
My laptop screen.

Worrying about?
nothing.

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?
I was fast asleep.

What's the last movie you saw?
Romper stomper.

Do you smile often?
depends.

QUESTIONS

1) Do you always answer your phone?
depends.

2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
no one.

3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Green.

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
anything sweet.

5) Do you own a digital camera?
Yes but I share it with my mom.

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?
Yes.But it was a long time ago.

7) Favorite Christmas song?
I won't be home for christmas - Blink 182.

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
Semoga Allah panjangkan umur ku,murah kan rezeki ku,beri kesihatan & ampunkan dosaku.

9) Can you do push ups?
yes.

10) Can you do a chin up?
Duh!

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
no idea.

12) Do you have any saved texts?
no.

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
No.

14) Do you have an accent?
British Accent perhaps.

15) What is the last song to make you cry?
Neyo - Lie to me & Elliot yamin - Wait For you.

16) Plans tonight?
Sleep.

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Yea.

18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week
Bass pick,Cigarettes & Food.

19) Have you ever been given roses?
no.If anyone do give & will definitely throw them away.

20) Current worry?
about nothing.

21) Current hate right now?
Low on cash!!.

22) Met someone who changed your life?
Yes,My best friend.

23) How did you bring in the New Year?
??????

24) What song represents you?
Blink 182 - What's My age again

25) Name three people who might complete this?
Nabeel,Yat & Burger.

26) What were you doing at 12 AM last night?
I'm still outside loitering.

27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
hungry & wondering what is mum cooking.

the F'ses??

2009-02-15T01:35:00.003+08:00

Rules:
It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name : Fehrin

2. A four Letter Word : Fuck!

3. A boy's Name : Faizal

4. A girl's Name : Fazurah

5. An occupation : Fry Cook

6. A color : florescent blue

7. Something you'll wear : Foundation skate T-shirt

9. A food : Salmon. Fried Rice

10. Something found in the bathroom: facial wash

11. A place : Fullerton Hotel

12. A reason for being late : Foot swollen.

13. Something you'd shout : Fun!

14. A movie title : Football Factory.

15. Something you drink : Fruit Juice

16. A musical group : five for fighting.

17. An animal : fox

18. A street name : Fullerton lane

19. A type of car : Ferrari

20. The title of a song : Fight For your rights

You think you've know me??

2009-02-15T01:02:00.002+08:00

you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.

1.I just got a letter saying a good progress award & they're giving me cash!.
2.I support only Manchester United football club!!!!!!.
3.I eat,live & breathe two7seven hooligans a.k.a childhood mates.
4.Punk Rock & a little bit of Oi is in my blood.
5.I'm a bugis decent but my IC stated I'm malay.
6.I wanna own a Husqvarna 125 but its impossible.
7.After My H.nitec & NS I'm off to Aussie to study.
8.I'am chocoholic.
9.I sometimes fell that I'm still I in love with someone.
10.skateboarding & Football(stop saying soccer) is my past time.
11.I hope I could achieve my 2B license & own a bike by this year August.
12.Hope to get at least GPA 3 this year.
13.I hope to find the girl of my dreams & be with her until I die.
14.I dislike being in a temporary relationship.
15.I got this habit of reaching class half an hour late.
16.I'm fetish for white chicks & adidas chicks.
17.I'm a friendly guy.
18.I rareky got into a fight.
19.thankful to have a best friend who is like a sister.
20.I always thought that I'm still 16.
21.I wish to travel all around europe.
22.My musical influence is Blink 182,Lagwagon,Perkele,Cock Sparrer & Local Band One-eighty.
23.I played the Bass in a new band called stick-a-slap.
24.I wish to watch Man Utd game at old trafford.
25.I wish that I could see Blink 182's live performance in front of me.

-_-

2009-02-11T02:49:00.003+08:00

I just enjoy stealing Q&A or Bulletins from others

1)status of you and the last person you sent a text to.
- mom

2)do you have any plans for saturday?
- Nope because its a stupid day called valentines day.

3)when was the last time you got flowers?
- never & hate it!

4)has anyone told u that u looked like someone famous?
- cristiano ronaldo with dark skin.

5)Do you love anyone?
- yes,My best friend,mom,mates & myself

6)Are you sad or happy?
- happy

8)Have you read the book Twilight?
- no,it sucks!!

9)If you had a chance to get back together with your ex, would you?
- nope,I'm still her worst ex she ever had,that was like 4 years ago.

10)Do you think your attractive?
- of course,I have always had high self esteem,but I hate to be mainstream.

11)What do you like about yourself?
- I'm handsome(all god's creation are),unpredictable attitude,can think like an adult yet I'm still playful.

12)Is there someone on your mind?
- nope.

13)Do you think someone is talking behind your back?
- who cares,if you want some come get some.

14)Do you like it when girls have egos?
- nope,I feel like slapping them in the head with my lonsdale slippers

15)Do you hate your friends?
- No,everyone I know is my friends,my 2009 resolution is no more enemies.

16)Do you remember your first crush's name?
- Nope forgotten about all that bullocks.

17)What are you?
- a guy,a human & blablabla duh!

18)did you kiss anyone today?
- my bass

19)are you a mean person?
- I'm an unpredictable person.

20)are you excited for anything?
- nope.

21)have you let someone down in the last week?
- No idea.

22)are you close with your siblings?
- I am an only child.

23)do you get along with your parents?
- only mom.

24)are you in a good mood right now?
- no,I feel sleepy.

25)who was the last person you spoke on the phone for over an hour?
- no idea

26)do you like to make the first move?
- nope.

27)do you hate it when people smoke around you?
- nope,duh I'm a smoker too.

28)whats something you really want right now, be honest:
- a relationship with a girl that could last until the day that I die, I just recently dislike temporary relationship.

29)whats the longest you've ever talked on the phone?
- no idea.

30)has anyone ever sang to you?
- Forgotten.

31)do you get emotional easily?
- I'm easily sad by touched events or losing something or someone.

32)has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
- I can't remember who but she says I have pretty brown eyes.

33)is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
- Yes,My bestfriend,my mom & sometimes someone else.

34)has someone ever made a promise to you and broken it?
- Yea,like alot of times.

35)do you want someone back in your life?
- my late grandmother,but I will never ever happen.

So long & goodbye!!

2009-02-09T13:21:00.002+08:00

Aye Aye & Assalamualaikum mates & Lads
Its been awhile I've been away from here..
Just so you know I'm just struggling my best to be a better person in life but yet there are many roadblocks along the way...
Just when I kept doing alot of good deeds I ended up on a roadblock & starting making simple sins like I think I better keep it to myself.

1stly i had a not so great weekend..
mom is away in thailand with aunts & uncles to visit my grandad there & shejust got back earlier 3am..
step dad off to poland will be back 12 feb..

I just got to know that a really good friend of mine is comfirm migrating to aussie..
due that her dad got retrenched & her dad got a new job there..
I'm really gonna miss her alot...
she is like my elder sister ...
I have never have any other intention all this while...
but I really do love her as a good friend & elder sister..
you helped alot in terms of advice & studies..
you're definitely a great sister,influence,tutor & a great friend..
I'll promise you that I'am coming to aussie after my h.nitec & Ns...
I'm gonna return home from aussie with a fucking degree...
I promise I won't waste my life & don't forget my religion...
hope you'll will visit the roots of where you grow up...
& I will definately give a suprise visit there...
to be honest when I heard the news I cried...
when she told me that its comfirmed I cried even more...
when I kept thinking about it I felt that I wanted to cry...
I bet the last time I'm gonna see you which most probably be at the airport I will no doubt flood that place...
why oh why must they go & retrenched workers happily as they wished...
do they think of their worker's family or something...
why are they so heartless..
why is there unfairground ..
where is freedom & justice???
when will this bollocks end??

ps:speechless

I'm Bored

2009-01-26T04:03:00.002+08:00

Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up?
*Yup,From Haikal furama
Are you in a relationship, single, complicated, married, or engaged?
*Single
Have you ever had your heart broken?
*Yea But I can't remember when & why
Do you wish someone would call you right now?
*No,I don't like to talk on the phone
Do you find piercings attractive on the opposite sex?
*I don't know
What song are you currently listening to?
* Scorpions - No one like you
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
* Yes,I'm quiting by end of this year
Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
* Nope.
Who do you miss?
* my nephew Amsyar & my best friend Illia
If you could go to any place right now, where would you go?
* Study in aussie or dubai
What are you doing tomorrow?
*Jamming session with my band
What was the last movie you watched?
*Grind
Will you be in a relationship 3 months from now?
*Insyallah
Are you happy at the moment?
*No,Because I'm Hungry
Do you want to get married?
* Of course ,DUH!!!
Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
* It depends
Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
*NO!
Is your computer desktop or a laptop?
*laptop
Who is in the room with you?
*Ghost???
How many boys have you cried many times over for?
*none
Who ended your last relationship? You, or your ex-partner?
* me
You ever liked somebody and never told them?
* Yup,I got a habit of keeping them
Honestly, do you like anybody?
* Yes
Flowers or chocolates?
* Chocolates
With your girlfriend, a romantic night in or wild night out?
* No idea
Have you kissed an opposite sex this month?
* No
How many girl have met both your parents?
* none
How many REAL relationships have you been in?
* none
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
* Yes,because its my cute baby nephew
Do certain songs make you cry?
*No
Do you get along better with your dad or mom?
*Mom
Who was the last person you hugged?
*no idea
Do you wish you could see somebody right this second?
*Yes
Has anyone put their arm around you in the past five days?
* mom
Who was the last person who called you?
* elmizam
Are you allergic to anything?
* seafood
Did you talk to anyone on the phone before bed last night?
* forgotten
Did you get at least eight hours of sleep last night?
*Yea yesterday night
Do you hate anyone and why?
* Nope,hatred is not in my interest unless they hit my wire
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
* no one
Who was the last person in your bed besides you?
*myself
To whom have you sent the most text messages?
*no idea
Do you love school?
* not really
Does anyone love you?
*don't know & don't care
Who was the last person to kiss you on the lips?
*None
How long do you know the person you love?
* Quite Long
What is it that you are worry about?
* Will I have a stable job & a great dad in the future??
Are you faithful?
*no idea
At what age do you wish to get married?
* latest insyallah by 27
Who was the last person you cried for?
* no one
Are you sad now?
* Nope
Who was the last person you took a photo with?
* my family

Pinjam Tau

2009-01-26T03:31:00.002+08:00

YOU MUST TRY THIS.

1. Put iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
The ACAB - Astray

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Blink 182 - Family Reunion

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Boxcar racer - There is

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
The ACAB - ACAB

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Medina lake - pandora

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Taking Back Sunday - a decade under influence

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
The darkness - I believe in a thing called love

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Gym class heroes - cookie jar(jyeah)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Motorhead - god save the queen(sex pistol cover)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
The Bravery - An honest mistake

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Five for Fighting - Its not easy to be me(yup thats true)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Delirium - delirium

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
FPower Rangers Dino Thunder Theme Song(why not ??)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Backstreet Boys - Quit Playing Games With My Heart(haha)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Creed - My Sacrifice

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
MXPX - Tomorrow's Another Day

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Neyo - Closer

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
The Oppressed - Oi Oi Oi

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Jimi Hendrix - Purple Haze

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Pink - So What

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Muse - Time is Running Out(I guess)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The Official - Hidup Kita

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Avril Lavigne - Hot

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Blink 182 - Wendy Clear

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
The Oppressed - Ultra Violence

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Ronnie james Dio - Don't talk to strangers(true)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Elliot Yamin - Wait For You

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
SR 71 - right Now

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
MXPX - Everything sucks when you're gone(maybe)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Blink 182 - I miss You

Knocked Out!

2009-01-06T05:08:00.002+08:00

Haha just after the 1st day of school I'm knocked Out...
Thank god school ended at 1pm on the 1st day...
as for today until thursday 8am-5pm...
DAMN!!!!...
no more lazing around...
I have to work damn hard alright...
gonna start switching my brain to study mode tomorrow once I get my books...
I had a really good rest earlier...
I slept at 3.30pm til 10.30...
woke up had some good dinner...
head back to sleep at 12.30am...
now I've just woke up feeling fresh...
might as well stay awake for subuh prayers & then get ready for school again...
so I guess thats about it,maybe I go play some video games...
COUNTER STRIKE!!!!....

PS:When will it be the day when I can talk & get to know you..hhmmm...

SCHOOL SUCKS!!!!!!

2009-01-05T01:03:00.002+08:00

Finally I'm back to school...
Time to start my 2nd year...
Time to be anti social in school...
Studies 1st ,anything else behind...
I must work harder than ever before...
So that I could go on to poly & mom will reward me with a suzuki swift!!!...
no more listening to hasutan masok class lambat or cabut!!!
I wanna be punctual & no more being lazy...
I don't care about the environment in school...
I only know that once I step my two feet in school thats it study mode 110%...
This is the only chance for me to release my burden of regretting not to go sec 5...
At least I'm satisfied if I'm in poly next year...
somewhat I didn't like school since day one in kindergarten...
school has always been a pain in the ass for my life...
as I get older I kept thinking positive...
I'm a male,one day I'm gonna be a leader of my own family...
Therefore I have to hold all responsibilities like bills & etc...
so without education & religion theres no way I'm gonna survive in this world ...
But I would always thank allah for what he has given me...
I just hope that allah will give me an average life that my family can live happily together ever after...

went skateboarding with my fellow Asal Bole Crew mates...
all full squad...
most of us got new deck,including me...
so I guess thats about time to sleep & off to school later!!!!

PS:Studies 1st once in school

Farewell 2008

2009-01-02T00:49:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I wish I wouldn't get older each day...
I wish I was still in Sec 1 or even Pri 6...
Alhamdulilah someone finally forgive me for my actions...
spent my 1st jan morning & afternoon at home sleeping...
31st Dec 2008 was a blast..
I puked at exactly 12midnight during countdown...
because I choked on chewing gum...
so never drink water while chewing gum...

I guess this are my top 5 2009 resolutions,

1)I wanna score at least 3.5 GPA & move on to if can TP or any other Poly.

2)I wanna earn a 2B license & own Yamaha Spark135 by if can Aug.

3)You know what I mean by looking at the picture

4)Be home latest by 11pm

5)Own a PS3 by December!!!

PS:Time flies fast

I'm not Saying,,I'm Just saying!!

2008-12-29T02:46:00.002+08:00

Yes I'm back ladies & gentlemen...
The End of year 2008 is upon us in a few days...
Hope to have a great 2009...
For the past few I've been having fun alright...
sk8 around Tamp area with my fellow mates...
Just check out my results last 2days...
guess what??
I got a GPA of 3.38...
My best buddy a.k.a my maths tutor,Illia was so proud when she heard I A's my maths...
SWEET!!!!..
I owe her big time..
Mom just bought me an 8gig memory stick for my psp...
finally no more switching back & forth my memory sticks...
Mom wanted to give me 600 bucks to buy a PS3 console but I turned down...
Instead I only asked 200 bucks so that I could just buy a new school bag & a new deck..
the remaining 400 bucks I decided to keep it until the time is right to use in 2009..
still thinking of what deck to buy...
I thought of getting either a BLACK LABEL,FOUNDATION,STEREO,GIRL or ALMOST...
Still thinking...
can't wait for 2009..
who knows what else awaits in my new adventure...
Alhamdulilah my friend came home from overseas safely...
Time to some sleep...
off to sentosa tomorrow..
see ya around lads!..=)

PS:Left with 2nd yr & then Insyallah to Poly

Football!! Football!!

2008-12-22T05:34:00.004+08:00

I had fun earlier watching football with my kmpng two7seven hooligan mates & some of the forum bootboys.
disappointing to see S'pore lost to Vietnam..
apparently after the game we got separated into 2 groups otw out as it was crowded...
the other group of my mates got a chance to have a piece of Vietnamese cunts...
while my group & I missed it,DAMMIT!!!!...
at least I had fun...
maybe next time haha...

While waiting for some of my mates..

kene candid..

two7seven hooligans..

ni part aku camera man..

football hooligans..

chill out..

before the game..

football time..

off home with a good laugh..

Negative 2008 perhaps?

2008-12-19T05:34:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I felt like 2008 is a year that I made bad decisions...
I still have the that I've made a stupid decision of going to ITE when I can promote to sec5 & take my O levels..
Yet I still can't accept that I'm actually in ITE...
Even right now...
We else can I do..
I can't turn the clock back anyways...
But I got no choice but to accept it...
What done is done....
Now I have work my ass really hard to go to a polytechnic...
Done something stupid to someone of course...
& its quite recent how stupid I can get...
I slacked like crazy during my 1st semester...
Spending money on stupid stuff...
There are just too many stupid wrong decisions I made recently but I barely remember...
Why oh why my life can be so cruel...
in 2009 I wanna be anti-social with my new classmates...
I wanna be a nerd who sits at home always facing a book & study...
I don't to mix around with anyone in school...
I wanna concentrate in class...
Less sk8,chilling,video gaming & outings...
I just find that this might be a good way to work my ass to poly...
I want my butt to stick to home most likely all the time...
At least if I'm qualified for poly in 2010,I can relief myself from not accepting that I made the wrong decision by not going to sec5...
let by gones be gones...
& can't change anything & just learn from mistakes

PS:what done is done

Super Duper Skateboard

2008-12-16T05:08:00.002+08:00

1st of all lets start off with the days I didn't blog...
Last Sunday went to babysit my favorite nephew Amsyar...
He's gonna start crawling soon...
He's just so cute...
Never fails to make my day...

Aku belom ready lar..

This is how he looked like everytime if he wants me to carry him...

With his grandma a.k.a my aunt

Just now as in monday...
went to parkway with elmmy & haikal...
then off to chill at east coast...
we then head back tamp at about 7.30pm...

Right now I should be asleep...
Instead I've been watching 2 old favorite movies of mine...
clockstoppers & then GRIND...
Its been about 3 years I've last watched these two
what inspires me about Grind is that...
It tells that never give up in achieving your goal...
It doesn't matter if its sk8boarding or other stuff you wanna achieve...
always have the fighting spirit to achieve...
something during the path to achieve there's always ups & downs...
in this situation you always have to look at the bright side...
take it as a lesson to be learned...
& sometimes we have some fun along the way...
never make the U turn because sometimes we won't know what what greatness awaits if we keep moving forward...
You can have fun all you want...
somehow we have to grow up...
We must learn how to be independent to achieve a goal...
can't always rely on people...
what ever the aftermath is we have to move on...
sometimes we didn't realise that our hardwork is being paid off...
I never realise this morale of the movie Grind few years back until I've watched it just...
maybe when I was younger i watched just for the amusement but never had the leverage to understand it..
One of the characters Dustin Knight(Adam Brody) actually sk8s with a Ben Sherman shirt...
He is one hell of a fucking rich cunt..
If I were him I'll can't bare to see my Ben Sherman gets torn apart when I'm sk8boarding...

I guess watching this movie again makes me realise about never give up on my hopes & dreams...
& always the quote call 'moving on''.
I guess tomorrow I'll be watching one of my favorite's LORDS OF DOGTOWN & a movie I haven't watched called I forget the name...
Who knows I might learn some good morales from there...
Do watch the movie GRIND people whether your a sk8er or your not..
Its worth your time seriously..

PS:Sweet Lou always gets the hit chix

Skate & Destroy!!!!!

2008-12-13T10:43:00.002+08:00

Apit is off to NS yesterday..
Gonna miss him even though we're not that close...
He's been a great friend...
I cannot my imagine my life in NS...
even though I'm pes E...
I still have to stay over & book out during the weekend for 3 months..
but the best thing is no exercise...
Thank You back surgery...
yet I will definitely miss miss my home & bed...
I'm gonna miss mom & her cooking...
stop talking about all this...
its still a long way for me...
education 1st mate...

Yesterday Me & Mates went sk8boarding for I can say the whole day...
meet up at cheers at about 10am(banyak pe 8.30)...
off to Youth park..
Serious park isn't my type of place...
Can't really do anything there...
Got tanned thanks alot eh....
Now I looked like a bangladesh...
then at about 3pm sk8 at scape stage...
buzz off from orchard at about 5...
reached Tamp & have a good meal...
continued at Sunplaza Park...
everyone was wiped...
so went back home early at about 8.30pm...
The moment I reached home,took a bath & land on my bed...
I can say thanks to this sk8 day my sleeping time is back to normal...

Credits to Mr Dyat Hamid for snapping photos yesterday...

So I guess thats about it =)

PS:I suck at park..

End of 2008 is upon us

2008-12-11T04:07:00.011+08:00

Alright chill mates...
I've been sleeping at about 6am most of the time ever since my holidays started..
Its kinda difficult to sleep early...
I've up all night playing counter strike,smoking,watching movies online,loitering & sometimes sk8boarding...
Just bought a sprint dash motor earlier...
Like finally I played Tamiya again after 2weeks...
btw moving on feels really great...
balik2 tu topic...
I wonder how am I gonna get to know that Nora Danish look alike..
shes cute =)...
but sometimes I feel I don't deserve anyone...
I'm not ready for all this seriousness...
because I'm young & always wanting enjoyment...

I just can't believe that its December now...
pretty soon its gonna be 2009...
alot of great & bad things that happened that turns out to be memorable..
pretty soon in 2009 I'm gonna turn 18 in a few months...
Gonna take my bike license & insyallah own a bike by august...
one of many things for this year is that Mr Syahid said his resolution is to reach home 10pm every day but haha kiss my ass...
what a wanker..haha...

well I guess my 2009 resolution is
*to work hard in ITE & insyallah move to poly...
*get my 2B license & own either a Yamaha Spark 135 or a Yamaha Spark Z...
*relationship?? nah not that important...
*buy my nephew Amsyar a Adidas shoe for his 1st birthday...
*less loiter more on studies...
well I guess thats all for my resolution...

there are always many stuff to talk about the events that happen in 2008...
here are just some pics of my 2008 memoirs...

Din,Madhan & Myself makan besar

Lepas makan standard isap rokok

In Osman's tour van

Hooligans having fun on the streets

Keep the line walking

We're the people that you hate!

fishtank gig!

chilling on a saturday

Primary school mates reunion

No questioned asked,Long story & great moment,Really appreciate it Thanks mate!

Haikal's deck fell in drain near polyclinic.People do keep on laughing

Its hard to see Syahid(Yellow) & Ashaari(dark Blue) sk8 these days,Biase aredah jdi abg keje & abg2 rempit

Having fun at aloha changi chalet,ade dah tua bangka dah habis NS & ade da nk kahwin tetap maseh enjoy.YEAH mate thats the spirit

Bdk2 kampong time check out,I went home already got religious class

My 1st Oi! gig

080508 is the day my closest nephew is born,he never fails to cheer me up when I'm down with problems.

Football day at Safra Turf

My Uncle from UK brought me back something form there nice!

some great people I met

The Asal Bole Crew.

Halloween Horror at Night Safari.

Nasi Ayam penyet before gig & my 2nd Oi! gig

Camera man at my 2nd Oi! gig..Am I like Peter Parker???

PS:Moving is a great,It lets me discover more

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha

2008-12-09T03:48:00.003+08:00

I keep waking up 3 times since 12 midnight...
thanks to weather...
sometimes I hate when its too hot...
I even hate it when its too cold...
I don't understand why...
Another reason perhaps kept awaking because in my mind I still kept thinking even I ended the book...
btw someone finally knows who is her unknown tagger...
shes one smart person ...
I laughed my ass out when I read her blog...
that unknown tagger is such a dumb ass for his age...
what a wanker...
he's been out smarted by her...
haha...

I think my stomach is begging me to go to kitchen...
get something nice & hot to eat...
take a hot bath...
smoke a stick of cigarette..
then back to bed again....

I finally get to see my favorite nephew Muhd Amsyar Hakeem...
Its been weeks...
I can't believe he misses me too...
the first thing he saw me he wanted me to carry him...
very clever for a 7 months....
compared to my other nieces & nephews...
I think he is the one closest to me...
maybe perhaps because I'm close to his mom Kak Ina...

PS:Kambing

THE END

2008-12-08T03:31:00.004+08:00

I may have been sad to miss Angels & Airwaves concert...
But nothing could make me happier to hear that Mark Hoppus & Travis Barker are allies again with Tom Delonge after 4 years...
They are now together as friends in good terms again & they even chilled together just the 3 of them & who knows this might be the return of blink 182...
I don't expect too much on the return of Blink 182 but there could be a possibility of a one reunion tour...
I swear if that we're to happen,I will shed my tears of joy...
Blink 182 I adore ever since I 9years old...
Its because of them I started discovering about Punk Rock & into instruments...
even though there might be an temporary reunion due that Tom is busy with angels & airwaves & Mark & Travis are still serious about +44...
I knew it since their broke up that one day they will be together even though not as a band but friends...
I believe in it & it took 4years to come true...

when blink were still together...

wah cheebye!!! this girl fcking lucky siow!!!
just watch the video its then you'll know

A tribute video of Blink 182 made by someone nice!

So besides that...
just came chilling with my mates...
i gotta get some sleep...
morning I have to go hari raya haji prayers...
to my mates be at indra's void deck by 7.30am sharp!!!

To someone...
I have never hate you...
I was just being childish for no reason...
Imagining to have an alter ego talking to me...
You thought me a lesson in life...
& it make me a better person...
but I know at one point I have no choice but to end the book...
but I never thought of closing it in a bad way...
for once in my life I never wanna give up...
but I have no other option...
I know its hard for me...
but I have to force...
whether you forgive me or not...
grudges you have towards me...
thats it...
to be honest ending this left me in tears...
I will forever remember who you are & the good & bad things that happen...
til we meet again,all the best in all your goal ,take care mate ;)

THE END A FAIRYTALE..=)

for you mate,Saying goodbye by Sugarcult

btw SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI TO ALL MUSLIMS!!!

PS: Thank You for everything,you'll be greatly missed

2008-12-07T06:19:00.002+08:00

Aye Aye Mates!!!!...
School & exams are finally over...
so bloody happy...
now its time for me to find a job...
I need money to save up for a bike...
I'm gonna enroll for a 2B license in 5months!!!!!!...
insyallah by in 8months time I'll be on the road JYEAH!!!
been on a hiatus for a few days...
I was at chalet with Yat,Isk,Ahmad,Sharul,Mahdi,Feeroz & many more of their friends mostly form ITE Tampines & ex tampines secondary...
thursday is where the fun began...
I did something sinful for both nights...
2nd night I was seriously gone!...
Thanks guys for helping me out especially farid & fee...
At one point I was angry at yat...
but some how my anger becomes into a sad emotion...
Is that I cannot frust myself...
came back saturday morning...
I had a good sleep & woke up at 6pm...
went to sk8 with the asal bole crew...
went to elmmy's haouse to chill then finally I reached home half an hour ago...

few days ago guess what?
I stepped upon a friend of mine's blog...
I saw her pics there & her friend was gorgeous...
she looks like nora danish...
wow!!!!
I want to get to her...
but I'm shy to ask my friend her contact...
shes 18 & I have a feeling shes single...
If shes attached too bad, kwang kwang kwang kwang...

to someone else...
I know your trying to avoid me...
i know your still mad...
for once please do believe me...
I really meant my apology..
I'm sorry I have to ask someone your new no. ....
but then if as if I've keep bugging you everyday...
I've only sms & msn to you last week ...
& I tried calling you just now but you did not answer...
I wanna close the book of me chasing you...
but in a good way...
I don't wanna carry the heavy guilt on my shoulder forever...
I know its my fault & I wanna make it up...
You want me to get a life...
Yes I am getting one btw...
Its ungentlemanly of me to not make up such a thing...
so if I have no choice then too bad...
I just have to end the story with disastrous ending ....

this song is for you! enjoy!

Plain white t's - a lonely september

I'm sittin' here all by myself
Just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
Just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
To leave the rest of the world behind

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
But I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
That you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
And the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
Will just kill me if I'm on my own

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
We just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
We've got nothing left to prove

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
But I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
When we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
The way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

PS:I deserve it for my unreasonable act...

The return of bulletins...

2008-12-03T02:37:00.002+08:00

Stole from Marwan's blog..
Here it goes...

This time last october,what was your love life like?
*No idea
Last person to make you smile
*Elmizam
Who can you blame for your bad mood today?
*The weather
Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy/girl?
*Yea
Do you think that you are a argumentive person?
*Yea sometimes
Skittles or Starburst?
*skittles
Do you wash your hair in the shower?
*DUH!
According to your ex are you hot/cute
*I thinks its cute..
Do you care about what others think of you?
*No,I'm just being myself
If your best friend like your ex, what will you do?
*I'll just say ''all the best''
How was last night?
*sleepless again!!
Who are all the people you have text messages from in your phone?
*my class advisor,Haikal,Elmizam,Nabeel
Have you ever been kissed in a car?
*Yes,by my mom when I was young
Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again?
*Nope
How are you feeling right now?
*Happy,worried,stress,In love
Last time you laugh?
*2hrs ago
Have you ever stripped for money?
*Nope
Last nap?
*no naps
What did you do on a Saturday night?
Went to watch The Sallys at esplanade
Excited about anything?
*Getting to know a someone,i hope shes not attached
Who were the first two person who you heard this morning?
*No one ,Iwas fast asleep
What did the last text message you receive on your cell says?
*"don't be late for exam be at the MLCR by 8.10am"
Have you ever liked someone who treated you nicely?
*no idea
Has anyone disspointed you recently?
*No,im disppointed in myself
What are you listening to?
*Blink 182 - dammit
Do you believe in celebrating aniversarrys?
*No,waste time & money
Have you ever had a difficult relationship?
*Yes,I've made it..hehe
Have you ever stayed in a hotel?
*Yes DUH!
What is in your pockets?
*nothing
Where would you like to be right now?
*Nude beach in any country of europe jyeah!!!
Ever been told you were loved by someone who didnt' meant it?
*Yes
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
*Maybe,hope its a beautiful hot chick
Whos the last person you talked to on the phone?
*Isk dangerous
How'd your day go?
*studying all day
Are you a big fan of snowstorms or thunderstorms?
*not both
Were you happy when you woke up today?
*no because I'm hungry

Exam week..

2008-12-02T16:47:00.006+08:00

Aye2 mate!...
didn't update for awhile sorry about that...
finally don with 1st year in ITE..
just left with finishing my exams....
lets start with last weekend...
Friday & Saturday went to see the sallys live at ass planet...
There are many kids & many trendy wanker that makes me wanna bash them...
I'm not childish so I just mind my own business...
I don't like fighting unless there is no choice...
Last Saturday I did something I didn't do for the last a year & a half...
guess what??? can't tell you...
I have to start studying later...
gotta to stop playing Tamiya & Counter strike...
I've been having sleepless nights recently...
not to mention Wednesday & Thursday night I did not sleep...
I've been playing counter strike all night when I can't sleep...
would normally feel sleepy at about 6am...

this one goes well with cs

some old pics
me & my favourite nephew Muhd Amsyar Hakeem
Angels & Airwaving while sheeshaing
My primary school friend elmizam during fasting month

I know that you are still mad at me...
I really regret what I do..
You thought me a valueable lesson..
I sincerely apologise I mean it...

PS:I hope your doing fine,Take Care

QUARTER PIPE JYEAH!!

2008-11-28T02:53:00.003+08:00

Today its like a happy day for me as I can finally drop down the quarter pipe at Bedok Adventure sk8 park....
At first I was fucking afraid...
its hard for me drop down...
I kept bailing...
It is frustrating...
I kept calm & cool...
In life I don't wanna fail & never want to give up...
I kept trying & with some motivation by Burger , elmizam & willy...
the three scary cats Zuhair,Haikal & Myself manage to do it by mid night...
if I can't overcome all this there is no use skateboarding...
even though alter & alter ego did not show up...
I manage to do it by myslef...
this is something I wanna put in life is that never give up!...
this is also a start of acting like a young adult...
Someone says I'm childish which is true...
now trying my best to act my age...
I hope your doing fine...
I don't wanna to have any issues & grudges between us...
I pray hoping that you will forgive me...
I didn't do a mistake to you for first time...
I promise I will think straight & stop being immature...
You thought me a valuable lesson on attitude & acting my age...
Thanks mate really appreciate it...

so guess that's about...
off to sleep..
still have not slept since yesterday...
PS:trying my best to act my age but who say I cannot have fun

Flaws so what so what...

2008-11-27T06:31:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep the entire night...
I can't stop thinking on how to resolve this problems...
its damn well my fault...
I create this trouble...
Its time for me to grow up & be mature...
But grown up doesn't mean you can't have fun right?
Time to overcome fears of growing up...
no more thinking that I'm still 10 years old...
I've got to face reality now...
This is life...
One day I've responsibilities & I have to learn all that starting from now...
even mom nags at me & wanted me to somewhat act like an adult & learn to take care my small responsibilty...
time be the old me again...
the Muhammad Fehrin that never afraid to be himself...
no more pretends...
To think back I'm actually dissapointed in myself...
I've never been this way before its not be...
even though I'm childish & etc..
what happened to charming gentlemen & fun to talk to Fehrin?...
The so called problem solver??
I used to brightened people's day by helping with problem or shed some laughter...
but recently I shed darkness & create problems...
Even my chance are zero to telur...
I hope that one day I get the chance to prove to you I'm worthy...
There's no one like you...
I've got to explore life...
just like my ex used to say I can think & be matured but its whether I want or don't want...
Maybe I'm getting boring they after day...
Nobody loves Blink 182 as much as I do...
I never did like to pretend just fit in...
I know that I'm not good looking or the way I dress...
I'm just being me...
The main thing about me its that I never wanna look or be mainstream...
I always wanna be different from the crowd in terms of attire & sense of fashion...
You are everything I ever treasure in life...
I remember sitting down & talking for even for a short period time with near your place...
that moment is something I definitely treasure...
seeing you last two weeks is also something i would treasure...
Time to face life...
Time to try to end this chapter of my life...
My wish is to have a one on one floorball game & a date with you before I end everything...
Look at the bright side there are many fish in the pond...
I've been fishing at the same small pond all these years & hoping for whale...
time to move to the ocean...
But the one that will stay with me is the feeling I have towards you...
Its hard to remove...
I hope that you don't mind your sibling & myself to stay as friends...
Now the only thing I have to worry is my Maths Exams which is later...
I can't let Illia down I'm gonna do my very best & make her proud...
I've got to make her sacrifices & effort she put it for me worth it...
back to that someone again...
its maybe time to say goodbye...
If you do need any help or anything...
I'm always here & my door is always open for you...
I'm now gonna be that normal guy I used to be...
I've got flaws so what? so what? everyone does...
I have to start praying again...
I've been missing my 5 daily prayers for 2weeks...
Til then I'm off to get ready for school...
class starts in 1 hour...
One more time I would like to sincerely apologise...
this I 100% mean it...

No more a kid time to act my age...

PS:thank you for making me realise...

Fuck my alter ego!!

2008-11-27T00:37:00.005+08:00

Ya thanks alot for emerging in my reflection & talking to me...
I trusted my alter ego & guess what you got me in trouble...
I thought you gave me the correct advice but no....
In reality I have to blame no one but myself....
If I we're to tell people about you alter ego then they will send me to IMH...

Lets start with today...
Thanks Sharul for adjusting my guitar amp this afternoon...
I sk8 form 7pm yesterday to 5am in the morning today...
Luckily I start school at 1pm...
my body is fucking sore!!!....
I injured everywhere...
I was on formed..!!! Yes ar I almost land backside 180deg heelflip ...

Last monday went to study at east coast while Marwan accompanied me...
Yes the wind there calms me down alot...
fuck exams....
Fucking stress on finding a job,at home,studies & money...

To someone:
No worries,people won't know its you...
I just don't know what's gotten into me lately...
I hope you accept my apology just like your bro...
I know its not worth saying sorry if its just saying it rather than meaning it...
Even most are my friends are dissapointed in me recently...
I wanted hatred there it is it came to me quick...
my two7seven hooligan a.k.a childhood friends/bdk2 kmpng I'm sorry...
to tell you the truth most of my friends also gets offended by my post...
they damn well dissapointed because its not me...
I've never been like this...
Even my best bud Illia is disappointed in my post...
I don't care about the probability of 0 to telor!!..
Yes I guess I'am being childish...
doesn't mean I feel that you hate means you hate me...
I got no prove to jump to conclusion...
I'm just an attention seeker who wants to people to think I'm a psychopath especially you...
I thought you would never enter my blog...
because I always thought I'm invisible in your eyes...
Yup you know my true feelings...
Its just that I kept saying 'I hate you' just to forget about you...
I wanna move on...
but its seems too difficult...
so I tried hatred but it doesn't work...
I'm not just in love with you but I'm also in love with your family...
I guess I'm born a jerk....
just like my ex used to say....
I just can't turn away from your beauty...
from my view there is no one like you...
with my perangai like this i have become what i've hated..
that is like my real dad...
I tell myself that i never wanna be like him but in the end I am...
but I sincerely apologize please give me one last chance...
even if the you said the probability is 0 to telor...
no wonder a girl doesn't wants to be around me because of my immature perangai...
dengan perangai aku yng mcm sial ni tkde orang pon nk dekat.
to be honest I can think maturely...
except that I've always think that I'm a 10 year old...
Its because I'm afraid & hates to get older each day..
If can I wanna have fun like a child until I die...
but that has to stop...
You make me realised that...
one day I have to take responsibility into my own hands...
I hope that at least you give me a chance to prove myself that I'm worthy even though I'm younger than you...
but I can't expect too much...
I appreciate alot that you appreciate what I did...
It means alot to me...
I just dunno what to say anymore...
I seriously have no problem with you at all =)...
hope I don't give you sleepless nights
Thanks for reading...

thats all I have to say...
Time to get out of child's play...
Time to get rid of alter ego..
& hope it won't come back...
Time to punk rock & hooligan again but after exams...
time to hit the pubs & watch some good football games..
time to be young , loud & proud!!!!!!...
JUST SAY HOOLIGAN!!!!!!!!!

for you mate!!

Thanks Marwan!!

2008-11-24T02:06:00.003+08:00

The insanity is gone...
I take back what I said about you....
I really apologise & to your siblings too...
Thanks Marwan for helping me fight my alter ego....
Doesn't mean I feel that you hate me....
doesn't mean you really hate me...
At last I'm happy...
To be honest I miss your beauty....
You are everything I ever wanted...
there you are laying at toys r us...
i wish i had the money to buy you...

Blood is sweet!!

2008-11-24T00:54:00.001+08:00

After reading your post...
I can say i enjoy your misery damn lot!!!
hahahaahahaha...
I love watching you break down & suffer...
especially your bleeding picture...
I enjoy every moment of it!!!...
The more you suffer the more enjoyable your blog is...
Its fun reading your damn misery...
It would be better if I can see you cry your misery in front of my face...
& after that I can laugh right back at you!!!

The Reflection

2008-11-23T15:03:00.002+08:00

still wipe out after 11 hours of skateboarding yesterday...
we started at 3pm from east coast to city link to east coast again then to our hometown tamp poser land...
something strange happened at the same time...
its as if my reflection is telling me what is right & what is wrong...
its like my insanity is getting to a new level...
but talking & listening to my reflection helps me alot...
it gives me the the power to be fearless when skateboarding...
yet I kinda like the pain....
I don't care about my well being...
so what if i die,one day you have to die too...
btw my reflection also told if I saw that person or any of its family member do think that I don't know them...
Yesterday that person's brother saw me & approached me trying to shake my hand but walk away without saying a single word & pretend not to know him...
that is an advice by my reflection which I also think that I'm doing the right thing...
you think I care about you three siblings???
not even a little bit...
curse you people...
I hate you guys...
why???
because all of you hate me deep inside & I can feel it....
don't try to act nice by approaching me...
I have no heart & remorse so I love you people keep hating me...
I don't care if people around me feel distorted,heartbroken,pain,fear,suffering or even if they DIE!!!!
all I can do is just at your fucking faces...
I'm not helping a single one in this world anymore...
I hate being good when you know people are just going to step over my head...
I wanna be way above bad...
I don't care about my friends(not all of them),family(less than a quarter) & evrything around me...
I wanna survive alone...
Because I was born in this world alone & one day I die alone...
If can I don't want a single human being to visit my jenazah when I die!!!...
MUAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
I have nothing to lose with this pure Insanity I can pass my exams & survive all alone!!
one more time I would like to say that haha padan muke aku tk layan kau!!
bodoh nyer budak paisey nk tegoh aku tapi aku step tk kenal!!!!
nk buat layan kau kalo kau benci aku!!!!!!
hahaaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahaha

I HATE YOU!!!!!!!

2008-11-21T19:09:00.003+08:00

I don't wanna mention your name but I seriously HATE YOU!!!
WHY????its because YOU HATE ME...
Am I right??Yes I am...
Guess what you never did care about me right...
Its the new me....
I don't care about people hating me...
I feed on hatred...
You think I'm depressed??
NOT! at all because I'm a heartless human being...
The more you wrote about your depression the more I find it amusing..
The more you cry the more I laugh...
I just love looking at others misery...
to me pain is pleasure...
I took back what I wrote in my last two post..
I can feel that you hate me deep inside & you would also never want to be associated with me...
I can also feel that you don't even want me to be friends with your siblings...
You wish you don't even know me in the first place right????
If only you would have the guts to tell me all that..
but I guess you're afraid to because you might hurt my feelings...
I DARE YOU!!!! to tell me straight in the face one on one!!!!!
After that I'll be laughing happily...
like I said pain is pleasure...
it doesn't hurt me it makes me laugh!!
I wish you DARE! to bring the pain to me!!!
I'm hungry for pain..
Losing a friend & wasting all these years??
I don't mind at all..
I've got nothing to lose because I've got pain,pure emotions & Insanity with me...
You make a good choice btw because if I were to be with you...
I would be doing alot horrible things behind your back!!!!
once you lose your sight on me thats it I'm up to no good..
so I guess you feed me the pain...
I even want more!!!!
keep writing your misery all day...
I enjoy laughing at every single one of it!!!!!...
I wish I can laugh at your face when your depress!!
Do hate me damn lot because I'm enjoying your hatred!!!!
Living in Grey world which is between black & white turns out to be a clockwork orange house of fun!!

Insanity has started...

2008-11-21T03:41:00.002+08:00

hey people...
just woke up after landing at the bed from 5pm earlier...
i've been having a bad headache from morning for no reason...
I bet my insanity is growing...
i have started to become what i've hated...
i hope i don't to junk again...
its fun talking to myself every night...
btw i dun care anymore about anything especially something...
the more you hate me the more i enjoy it...
the more pain i have to see & feel the more pleasure it feels...
i have no fear & remorse anymore...
I'm a heartless human being..
i live in a world of my own...
its called the clockwork orange house of fun!!!!

Between Black & White,Its Grey!

2008-11-19T00:01:00.003+08:00

shit shit shit...
why must life fill with bollocks!!!
I can't believe that I woke up late this & miss my fucking tutorial...
fuck fuck fuck!!!
I must collect all the extra credits I need & exams is 2 weeks away!!
next week will be my maths exams...
THANK YOU my good buddy ILLIA SULASTRI for helping me out since june...
I really appreciate it...
I'm just left one or two tutor session with you..
btw her good deed comes in a long way...
enough of that...
I still got presentation yet to be done which is due Tommorrow !!!
ARGHHH!!!!!!
My online assignments to be done by FRIDAY!!! ARGH!!!
my brain is haywire....
The only time I could control my brain is when I play wwe smackdown vs raw 2009 on my psp!!!....
to top it all of I'm still having cough since last week!!!
fuck life!!!!!!!!
I can't stand the pain anymore....
I wish I can turn it to pleasure...
This is the part that i wish i can be permanently insane!!!...
then I got no worries & fear...
I just have to let something out & I'm really sorry to who ever it concerns...
"I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU"....
Argh!!! I hate my fucking life!!!
can't I have a good life like others..
why can't i be flawless!!!!!!!!!!
I rather be insane...
There is no meaning living in a world of black or white...
I preferred living in grey...
I'm sick of being sorry & always hiding things to myself...
time to turn this pure emotion ,hatred & insanity into something ..\
I would rather become what I've hated...
MUAHAHAAHAHAHAAAAAAAAHAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!

It won't leave I'm sorry

2008-11-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

Spider (Tam / Tam & Loloq)

Kekal

Tidak percaya
Dan pernah aku menduga
Kasih terpisah
Dalam sekelip mata

Sukar untuk dimengerti
Berat untuk difahami
Mengapa mawarku berduri

Kau pelangi mengiringi gerimisku
Kau.. kau di dalam hatiku
Kau dalam ingatan
Kau sebagai kasihku
Kekal sepanjang zaman

Kira kau dan aku
Satu hari nanti
Akan bersatu

Biar terbakar jiwa di perjalanan
Ku bersumpah
Akan pulang ke pangkuan

Kau cahaya menyinari duniaku
Kau kekal di dalam hatiku

Kau dalam ingatan
Kau sebagai kasihku
Kekal sepanjang zaman
Kira kau dan aku
Satu hari nanti
Akan bersatu ( 2X )

The 100th post!!

2008-11-06T00:54:00.002+08:00

Aye Aye mates!!!
Today I was so lucky to wake up with a headache...
& I can proceed to polyclinic & keng M.C....
So what polyclinic for me its free...
because my mom is working under singhealth...
jyeah!...
I slept the whole day...
after magrib went to play Tamiya with Shaiful...
Indra then came along to see the track...
just a few more modification is needed for my tamiya...
went to lepak at kampong after so I guess thats all for today!!..

Here are some pics...

Night Safari Halloween Horror:

crazy people..haikal pervert!!

friendly clown

shes actually hot

the witch

the cool scarecrow

no idea???

me & elmizam

Football Day @ Safra Turf credits to Baq

Din jgn Din!!
baik ar Mus..
the best goalkeeper for letting in most goals..
me & indra

with my mates..

other pics enjoy!!

I wish I had a son..
bluek!
Amsyah sleeping

My new Tamiya car

Broken Gigant stock!

A new begining
JYEAH!!!

GSF GSF GSF!!!!

2008-11-05T04:00:00.003+08:00

Aye mate...
today wasn't really a great but instead its a bad day for me...
some part of it I don't to published it publicly...
just got to know I got wisdom tooth...
really irritating it hurts right to the brain...
decided to save money for something else but instead I bought myself a new Tamiya Car..
this time I won't let mom throw it...
after that I went skateboarding until right now which I've just came back...
I came back late because got something to do with coppers bastard...
I wanna thank my really good friend Illia for lending me her ear...
Its really hard nowadays to find true friends like her...
I really appreciate it...
I'm stressed out because how am I going to set an appointment date when the doctor doesn't respond my sms & pick up my call???...
Now I have a feeling of the to change the one of two choices I have to make...
went to night safari last friday with Haikal,Ruz,Elmmy & Wan...
Bridge of hell mcm sial...
the long tounge ghost friendly sikit...
hoping ghost sombong...
bush ghost main busted...
siak btol...
thanks for making me run towards ruz's shoulder & go home with a swollen eye...
I also lost my adidas watch there...
so thats all...
pics will be uploaded some other time...
& off to sleep..
up yours mates!!!

Choices are hard to make

2008-10-31T01:29:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes...
suppose to be sleeping right now but instead up all night...
I haven't had enough sleep...
I'm so stressed up with my school & life...
went to tuition just now after school then off to sk8...
tomorrow i'm suppose to go Halloween horror but Haikal suddenly perangai semacam...
dekni tkde tk nk,malas lar ape lar....
ni mcm members???
sape jgk yng ckp gi sane lgi worth it dari escape???
sape yng semangat...
nk ramai asl tk nk ajak satu skola kau????
mostly I stress about something to do with want & don't want....
if I say I 'want' means my life would change forever...
I have to start progressing now from 0% onwards...
& I am gonna miss the life that I am having right now as there are many responsibility...
& I wanna be serious about this decision
if i 'don't want' & carry on my life as now is either i'm happy or sometimes jealous & regret choosing decision...
but there will be no responsibility....
I can always punk rock all the time...
Its a tough decision to make...
I hope my brain can function to the fullest just to think for this....
Allah please help in choosing the correct one....
Ya Allah please I hope whatever decision that I choose will go smoothly in a good way,amin.

.......

2008-10-30T04:10:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to say...
I should be sleeping right now because I'm starting school at 8am...
went to study with Haikal & gang just now....
so I guess thats all ppl...

Football Day!!!

2008-10-25T04:45:00.002+08:00

aye mates!
I sure had a great day & at the same time sad...
1st of all its sad to see moyang a.k.a my aunt's grandmother passed away...
went to melawat this morning with my cousin fairuz...
so I was excused from school...
after friday prayers went to my maths tuition...
then went home to get my gear & thats when football day begins...
me & my kampong mates booked the small field at tampines safra ....
Its was damn fun but in the 1st place sucks because I have to be the goalkeeper..
btw I don't even 1% of goal keeping skills...
I break the record of letting in most goal...
thats a good achievement...JYEAH!...
but still I get to play striker but I want right wing...
we played from 7pm to 9pm....
after that merempit back to kampong to chill until 4am...
btw I just reached home...
so I guess thats about & finally today my lap top is back up & running..
PS : at last after 3 days my lap top is cured..

Out of Hiatus

2008-10-20T23:37:00.002+08:00

Yes mates I'm back again...
6 weeks more to exams & I dunno whether I'm ready or not to move on the 2nd year..
hopefully after that I can move on to polytechnic & hopefully its TP...
not because of some other reasons its just that its near to where I'm staying...
even though by then I already have a bike but still I'm not gonna waste money on patrol & ERP..
Even if I don't make it to poly...
In higher Nitec I wanna aim high so that I can skip the 2nd year & move on to poly...
so thats not a waste I guess???
My mate Maliki has just gotten his 1st bike which is a 125Z as a 21st birthday present for himself just now...
wow now 80% of my mates has a vehicle license & also vehicles of their own...
whats left is the ones the ones who were born below 1990..
Yat is going to be next cause his birthday is next month...
I wish I could own a 125Z but too bad its 2stroke...
I wanna 4stroke bike but then what 125z attracts me was just the looks...
7 months more until my enrollment & yet I've done nothing to save instead I spend them all & I'm left with 50bucks...
less talk on bikes...
I had my practical & guess what most of my components which is given is spoil...
I was like fuck what the hell I do wrong...
I connected it perfectly....
I was lost until the class adviser check it...
....
spend my last weekend at Bukit Panjang to ease of some stress I've been having...
I dunno why I'm feeling weird & worried recently...
Can't vist Amsyah last weekend because he is sick...
why why why...
god please tell me what is bothering me...
I can't think what is bothering me...
I don't know who,what & why its bothering me...
ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!
I hope that one day I don't go crazy & become a psychopath ...

so I guess thats about it & I'll be back when I have the urge to blog...
ADIOS!!!

PS:stressed out!!!!

Selamat Hari Raya..

2008-10-07T03:28:00.004+08:00

I finally got the urge to blog...

I just woke up from a short nap...

followed Baq to rock climbing just now..

I have to admit I'm shagged after that...

My hands become weaken so fast...

I can't even do pull ups...

The bouldering wall at Balestier was even more difficult than at Springfield Sec...

Hands are all very sore...

Raye was quite fun for me...

Rezeki pon not bad for my age...

Boros pon not bad for me..

I just spend too much on food....

but not that much on ciggies...

yeah so much for quiting...

it seems quite difficult to quit....

but it seems easy to start....

never mind I'll set a new target...

I will quit when the s'pore ciggies have the label sdpc...

I just don't why I can't sleep right now...

my heart is saying that I feel sad & worried about somthing but I don't know what...

& I miss my nephew Muhd Amsyah Hakim...

My Cuz kak Ina's baby boy...

He is like the cutest thing I ever saw in my 17 yr old life....

sometimes I think to myself when will I have my own offspring & who will be that beautiful lady to be giving birth to him or her....

I hope to get married by latest age 24.....

I also got names planned for my child....

boy:Muhd Fazlan...girl: nursazurah...amcm ok tk???

merepek ar ni budak lagi lamer lagi lar...

skola pon belom habis nyaha...

yea tommorrow I can finally go jamming...

be meeting yat & lam 1pm at club paradise...

yessa like finally...

for the 1st time I'm jamming Oi!...

normally I'll jam punk rock,pop punk...

so I guess thats all & here are some pics....

Taken at 1st week ramadhan during my shopping spree

At KL 20 09 - 21 09

Me & my ride(mcm real) 1st Day Raye...

Last Sunday's Raye Outing...bersabar je tk lamer lgi...

My new nephew Muhd Amsyah Hakim..Cute giler!!!!!!!!

So how ade bakat nk jadi Bapak tk?? or how about Daddy in training?? Amsyah in action

PS: Belom jln raye ngn members ni...

Rumah dorg lom serang collection =)

Ramadhan Premier League...

2008-08-31T14:57:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes RPL is gonna kickoff tonight alright...

but I won't be there but I will at masjid sembayang terawih...

so i guess thats all & selamat berpuase!

QUESTIONS ABOUT YOUR 1st FEATURED FRIENDTER FRIEND

2008-08-17T03:32:00.004+08:00

1) What's he/her full name ?

- Muhd Syahid

2) Does he or she have a bf/gf?

- single

3) Do you know a secret about him/her?

- dunno?

4) How old is the person?

- 19

5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?

- never !

6) Is this person older than you?

- yea

7) When was the last time you thought

about him/her

-never!

8) Are you really close to him/her?

-not sure how to explain

9) Do you have a nickname for each

other?

- yes

10) Do you think she/he will repost

this?

- don't think so .

11) Could you live with this

person?

- sometimes yes ,sometimes no

12) Why is this person your number 1?

- no idea..im just putting him there randomly

13) How long have you known this

person?

- 5yrs

14) Have you ever had a sleep over with

them?

- ton only & at chalet or pit

15) If you ever moved away would you

miss this person?

- no & never

16) Have you ever given this person

something?

- yes

17) How well do you know this person?

- not sure

18) Do you miss him/her?

- not at all

19) Is she/he on drugs?

- No

20) Do you know this person's shoe size?

- i have no idea

21) Have you ever worn this person's

clothes?

-no

22) Have you and this person made

up a hand shake?

- nope

23) Has this person ever seen you

dance?

- no

24) Have you ever heard this person

sing?

- Yes.! and I dont wanna hear it again.

25) Do you know this persons

friendster password?

- nope

26) Have you and this person ever

gotten into a fight that lasted more

than 2 days?

- yes & most of the time

27) Does this person cry alot?

- no idea

28)Have you met this person's

family?

- nope

29) Have you and this person went

clubbing?

- no

30) Do you know how to make this

person feel happy?

- dunno & dun want

31) Do you and this person talk a lot?

- depends

32)Have this person ever yelled at you?

- yes & most of the time

33) Have you and this person got into

fist fight?

- no but I wish .

The return of bulletins!

2008-08-17T03:14:00.003+08:00

I’m tired of?

♥ school.

I am listening to?

♥ perkele - visitors

Maybe I should?

♥ sleep now

I wish?

♥ I was a billionaire

Chocolate is?

♥ my addiction

I have lost my respect for?

♥ everyone because I wanna do what I want & do what I want

Last ate?

♥ popcorn

The meaning of my display name is?

♥ no idea
Someday?
♥ i will die.

Love is?

♥ crap & meaningless

My Space is?

♥ for my spacers

Yesterday?

♥sk8 day & football day

Tomorrow?

♥ is just another day

last beverages?

♥ plain water.

Last phone call?

♥ dun need to noe.

Last time you cried?

♥ last February

HAVE YOU EVER.

Lost someone close?

♥ my grandma.

List 2 favorite colors?

♥ red & blue

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:

Made a new friend?

♥ not really.

Fallen out of love?

♥ no idea

Laughed until you almost cried?

♥ haha, all the time.

Met someone who changed your life?

♥ nope

Is there something you want to tell someone?

♥ nope

Whats the most interesting thing that happened to you today?

♥ nothing

Whats your favorite number?

♥ 3,7 & 11

What is your current mood?

♥ boring

Last people you hung out with?

♥ kampong mates

Whats the color of the shirt your wearing?

♥ i'm topless right now

Whos car were you in last?

♥ indra's van?

What color is your hair?
♥black

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?

♥ everything I that wished & dream of

When is your birthday?

♥ 13/05

How do you feel about your hair right now?

♥ no idea

What are you excited about?

♥ nothing

How is your life?

♥ i happy with what i have right now.

I'm back...

2008-08-17T01:27:00.002+08:00

AYE AYE MATE..!!!!
I'm back...
Finally blogged again....
Nothing much to tell....
All I did this past few days was just go to school...
skateboarding,seeing chicks(i know they surely want me),
playing monopoly with my kampong mates,study & bla bla bla....
Teacher's Day is coming closer...
It will be on the 28th Aug...
Can't wait to see my High School mates...
Fasting month is also don't forget!!!!!...
1st sept tau!!!!
PUASA JAGAN TK PUASA!!!!!!!!...
If I managed to completely fast the whole month last year...
why not have the confidence & will power to do it again this year...
btw people,I'll be performing at arts house 20th sept(aku tau lar lgi lamer)
playing a set of PUNK ROCK,Pop punk songs...
just helping out a classmate's band...
I'll be the bassist...
bands there & our time slot to be comfirmed...
tickets selling at $10...
so try to make yourself free...
if busy never mind...
so I guess thats about it...
signing off,your chick magnet,so be jealous!.

2008-07-29T00:04:00.002+08:00

1) How many children do you want?
-most is 3..

2) Where will you go when someone sponsors u an air-ticket?
-U.K.

3) What's your favourite thing to do?
-being lazy.

4) Do you think money can buy happiness?
-no.duh!

5) If you're given a chance to revive something back, what would it be?
-my great past.

6) Have u ever been regretted in ife?
-Yes.

7) What are you afraid to lose?
-my money & life.

18) If you win one million, what would you do?
-buy everything I want when I see it.

9) What do u dream of doing in the future?
-hope to work at my cousin's DEACON Computing company & get married by 24.

10) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
ntah?

................

2008-06-22T05:46:00.003+08:00

Do you want to grow old with someone or be single?

: single

/What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?

: meeting my friends.

/What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

: bathing

/What was something that happened to

you in 1992?

: i was 1,how should I know?

/If you were stranded on an island

with the person you hated and without

food what would you do:

: kick his sorry ass & make him suffer.

/When someone catches your eye, do

you try to make eye contact or avoid it?

: avoid.

/What color is your hairbrush?

: never use

/What was the last thing you bought?

: milo.

/How do u know when ur in love?

: no idea.

/Have you been to china?

: nope

/Where do you keep your money?

: in my jeans pocket.

/Have you traveled outside the

country?

: yeaah

/Do you wish you were back together

with any of your exes?

: no!.

/Do you like peanut butter?

:yes.

/What is your motto on love?

: no motto needed for me in my life.

/The thing you love about relationships?

: nothing.

/The thing you love about being

single?

: freedom & save money!!!!!.

/Would you give up a dream for

someone you loved?

: no.

/Do you wanna cut your hair?

: no,my hair is already short!!!..

/Are you over the age of 25?

:I wish.

/Do you talk a lot?

: depends who i am with

/Do you watch The O.C.?

: no.

/Does your screen name have an "x" in it?

: no

/Do you know anyone named Kelsey?

: no.

/Favorite ice cream?

: anything with chocolate

/Could you date someone who has been only your friend for a long time?

: ??????,I hate dating & I will never ever go dating.

Holland!!!

2008-06-14T07:21:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes...
just came back from watching some euro football at coffee shop with my mates...
nothing much to say....
Earlier all I did was sk8 with my mates...
had a 2 out of 3 fall game of sk8 with pul....
so thats all ppl...
off to Melaka tonight...
to get a new truck,harrington,sk8 shoe & many more...
so dun miss me OK!...
I mean it...
see u on monday!!!!....

ps:ntah?

questions & answers.

2008-06-13T23:36:00.003+08:00

Q:if your lover betrayed you,what would be your reaction?
A:I gonna kutok her cukop2 & ask her fuck off from my sight.

Q:if you had 3 wishes,what will it be?
A:to be a billionare,religious & be with that special someone.

Q:did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
A:obivously

Q:are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
A:no & dun care

Q:would you change yourself for the person you loved?
A:no!,why must I do it for her if she never do anything for me.

Q:which is more blessed,loving someone or being loved by someone?
A:dunno dun care!

Q:how long do you intend to wait for somone you really love?
A:I dunno.

Q:if the person you secretly like is already attached,what would you do?
A:be happy for them, wish them all the best & kalo ade rezeki tunggu sampai dpt.

Q:is there anything that made you unhappy this days?
A:nothing, except the shortage of cash....

Q:do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you are around the guy/girl you like?
A:no,I treat every girl equal like all my friends which are guys.

Q:have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A:yes.

Q:who are currently most important people to you?
A:1st,myself..2nd,my mates..3rd,money..lastly MOM!.

Q:have you ever wanted someone but you knew you cudnt?
A:yes.Paula Deanda,Jessica Alba,Nora Danish & Fiona Xie

Q:what's the ideal perfect relationship to you?
A:someone who can understands me & I could understand her.

Q:are you happy with your life now?
A:yes of course.

Q:would you give all in a relationship?
A:NO! my kampong mates are more important.

Q:if you fall in love with two person simultaneously,who would pick?the pretty/handsome one with a loving character?or the pretty/handsome one with a pocket full of money?
A:definitely the pretty one with a loving character.wth.I've got brains dammit,I wanna love someone for who she is.

Q:what type of friends do you like?
A:friends who treat equally among others & doesn't care about age.also great role model & that can last forever.I think that would be my kampong mates.

Q:do you often wish that there were something you could change?
A:YES! I wanna quit smoking,more hardwork less sleep & be very2 religious.

Q:what do you usually observed when you meet a girl/guy for the first time?
A:nothing,to me guys & girls should be treated the same.I do treat them the same even if shes my GF.

pinjam bulletin lagi.heh.

2008-06-10T13:09:00.002+08:00

1. Are you in a complicated love situation?

nope

2. Do you hate more than 3 people?

maybe

3. The last thing you drank?

mango syrup

4. Do you like beer?

yes,it sucks btw its been a year since I last drink I swear I've quit.

5. Is anyone in love with you?

Maybe.

6. Pepsi or sprite?

pepsi

7. Does look matter?

not really. but most of the time, yes.

8. What did you do last night?

sleep at elmizam house

9. Nick names?

most ppl call me ferr or fehr..i seriously hate that nickname

10. If you had a super power, what

would it be?

become a red ranger or become ironman.

11. Are you thinking about somebody

right now?

yes. why on earth she doesnt like me??!

12. Ever called somebody Boo?

never. to me its crap.

13. Are you happy with your life right

now?

8 out of 10

14. Do you like your hair?

no.

15. Does anyone like you?

dunno

16. Are you afraid of the dark?

never.

17. Have you ever broken someone’s

heart?

yes. its kinda fun

18. Can you cook?

yes.serious

19. What do you want more than

anything right now?

finally find my special someone.

20. Relationship or one night stand?

relationship. really! i wanna stick to sumone and stay loyal

21. When was the last time you said "I

love you?"

last saturday to Lam.

22. They say you're so?

talkative and noisy.

23. Single or taken?

single but not available .

24. Happy? Why?

yes. cause, im still alive.