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Assalamualaikum,May Peace Be Upon You June 2007 I blogged when I'am bored |
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Flaws so what so what...
I can't sleep the entire night...I can't stop thinking on how to resolve this problems... its damn well my fault... I create this trouble... Its time for me to grow up & be mature... But grown up doesn't mean you can't have fun right? Time to overcome fears of growing up... no more thinking that I'm still 10 years old... I've got to face reality now... This is life... One day I've responsibilities & I have to learn all that starting from now... even mom nags at me & wanted me to somewhat act like an adult & learn to take care my small responsibilty... time be the old me again... the Muhammad Fehrin that never afraid to be himself... no more pretends... To think back I'm actually dissapointed in myself... I've never been this way before its not be... even though I'm childish & etc.. what happened to charming gentlemen & fun to talk to Fehrin?... The so called problem solver?? I used to brightened people's day by helping with problem or shed some laughter... but recently I shed darkness & create problems... Even my chance are zero to telur... I hope that one day I get the chance to prove to you I'm worthy... There's no one like you... I've got to explore life... just like my ex used to say I can think & be matured but its whether I want or don't want... Maybe I'm getting boring they after day... Nobody loves Blink 182 as much as I do... I never did like to pretend just fit in... I know that I'm not good looking or the way I dress... I'm just being me... The main thing about me its that I never wanna look or be mainstream... I always wanna be different from the crowd in terms of attire & sense of fashion... You are everything I ever treasure in life... I remember sitting down & talking for even for a short period time with near your place... that moment is something I definitely treasure... seeing you last two weeks is also something i would treasure... Time to face life... Time to try to end this chapter of my life... My wish is to have a one on one floorball game & a date with you before I end everything... Look at the bright side there are many fish in the pond... I've been fishing at the same small pond all these years & hoping for whale... time to move to the ocean... But the one that will stay with me is the feeling I have towards you... Its hard to remove... I hope that you don't mind your sibling & myself to stay as friends... Now the only thing I have to worry is my Maths Exams which is later... I can't let Illia down I'm gonna do my very best & make her proud... I've got to make her sacrifices & effort she put it for me worth it... back to that someone again... its maybe time to say goodbye... If you do need any help or anything... I'm always here & my door is always open for you... I'm now gonna be that normal guy I used to be... I've got flaws so what? so what? everyone does... I have to start praying again... I've been missing my 5 daily prayers for 2weeks... Til then I'm off to get ready for school... class starts in 1 hour... One more time I would like to sincerely apologise... this I 100% mean it... No more a kid time to act my age... PS:thank you for making me realise... Labels: Kid to young adult |
