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Hey internet ppl sorry 4 nt blogging in a veri long tyme....lets start wif friday 14th december, well went to friday prayers @ masjid sultan, Osman picked me up wif his van then picked up Din & Mus.... Afta prayers we had lunch @ kampong's coffee shop...then farhan came down asked us whether we wanna follow he & his nephew if we wanna join them to escape theme park & we did agree...acos also tag along...except for osman he had to go to work....we had fun there ..at first tompang acos...went back hm tompang mus...i've reach home @ abt 9pm..& afta syahid gave me a call asked whether i wanna sk8 ton @ simei mrt...well i guess ok...asked my cuzin 5ruz if he wanna tag along & btw he had not be sk8ting for five years...5ruz had loss touch most of his skills but he's still good..@ abt 1.30am we felt bored wif simei so we decided to explore s'pore expo & guest what it is the greatest sk8 spot of all..u got to go there to noe it ..i can't describe it...went back @ 6am then have a good few hours sleep.... saturday 15th december, went to see an old s'pore ska band fishtank & punk rock band one eighty @ youth park & guest what its free...we had fun alright...i was skankin & body surfin,fishtank did play some of their new indie songs but the crowd mostly enjoy their classic ska song titled what about you...there is aslo a great band named monophone...they r so called s'pore's muse...they played their originals & covering muse's stockholm syndrome...they play & sang exactly like muse....well aslo there r also trendy wankers like the matreps...saw apit while skankin...& then nawawi.....gig finished @ abt 11.30pm...we went to eat @ al ameen then lepak 4 awhile then we flee hm.... sunday 16th december, before i start let me tell u what she wrote @ her blog ''i'm getting super annoyed now. i tried to be nice. but the more you kept calling, and smsing me just make me MORE paranoid. i did chat with you for sometime. some days, i was trying to be pretty nice by picking up your calls. some days, i simply couldn't be bothered. sometime, i reply to your messages, then again, there are days I COULDN'T BE BOTHERED. can you see where this is going? STOP BUGGING ME PLEASE, THANK YOU. i didn't wanna tell you right in your face, cos its not nice. but i'm not sure whether this is bad or worse. im sorry.. to unoehu.... *atleast i didn't write your real name down'' i can say the worst day in year 2007 of my life... that particular someone that i would prefer as ehem... she suddenly got mad @ me for making her annoyed... & she said alot of mean things that did nt make me mad but heartbroken.... well i would like to say i'm sori & i sincerely apologise... if u dun like it just say it earlier...i could do somethin to change... the truth is i realli2 like u...u noe that... i aslo realise that u needed some space... & there is a phrase "if u luv something u jus wanna b surrounded by it... its jus that i'm an onli child...at least 3years ago if my grandmother nvr left me dis wouldn't happen...my mom & step dad nvr cared abt me..they nvr gave me the love just like ur parents gave to u...i'm always the odd everywhere i go..my uncles & aunties would also refer me as 'BUDAK JAHAT'..they always looked down on me...i've never felt family love ...the onli person that give love to me was my grandma..i never did care abt girls b4..i just needed a special friend to keep me company & be wif that special friend as long as i could or even 4ever...dis is the part where i wish i could see nenek again...sometimes i wish that i want god to take my life away so that i could be wif my grandma as i felt unwanted i dis world...my parents would always find their job more important than me....of course my step dad hu earns 10,000 bucks a months pelokek plak tu bodoh pe ciner...luckily i still have my kampong friends...thanks dudes 4 everything u guys r like my family..u see u got to understand me too....i would reached home & mom & dad would be sleeping...when i woke up nobody is around to talk to.... i called u most of the time is b'cause i just wanna get to noe u more & also hoped that u get to noe me.. i'm just afraid that if i waited too long somebody else would get u.... rite now i'm in the verge of giving up...i've jus deleted ur no.,ur friendster & there is still more to delete... as of today i would no longer recognised u hope ur happy... rite now i jus want u to be happi wif hu ever u want to be wif.... i hoped that ur happi b'cause it will make me happi too... i guess i'm jus wastin my time buying a b'dae present 4 u...regret putting aside some of my pay hoping that i would want to asked out on a date,wastin my time liking u,wastin my time feeling wooried abt u when ur on holiday,sending u songs that have not been release but mostly wasting time smsing,chatting & calling to find out u picked up & replying 4 da sake of doing it & being nice.. there is also another phrase "if u love it,then let it free"....if ur happi then i'm realli happi... u make me realise that i'm the stuppidest,nuisance,shortest,ugliest,oddest,cashless,untalented,unwanted & unfashionable person that nobody have ever seen & nobody wants to be wif..nt onli u think that way so did my family & myself.. i guess i'm just not up to the standard 4 u... i just wanna say thank u 4 letting me noe u for a short period,goodbye & farewell & again i sincerely apologised...& i accept ur apology btw jus came back frm khabir's house & i can't sleep all nite thinking about this & my n level results which is 2moro... goin to work later at abt 4pm so see ya later alligator... |
